I am curious, do any of you ever have aspects where you are in the mood to draw yet when you are getting things up and going to start trying to draw, your mind decides to pull a "Fuck you" and suck that energy away as well as any ideas you had as well?

If so, how does one get around fighting this damnable thing? I was thinking of trying to do some drawing related things, but it seems that that energy has gone as well as any potentials for ideas of what to draw. >_<

Granted, I wonder if my brain is auotmatically making me think of failure and not doing stuff before I attempt to try due to my rather perfectionist nature when I do stuff? Like, my chances are being shot down by that before they even come close to coming to fruition?

I don't know, but the aspects of me feeling like drawing almost never happen, and then, when it does, I seem unable to do much. Forcing myself just makes it much less likely for me to draw, or to not like that which I made even if by others standards it is pretty good. So f*cking confusing. >_<

Also, am I bad in the fact that my brain seems to want to try doing this drawing stuff out of my own head and that looking at things as referances to be "cheating" a bad thing? I mean, I know I shouldn't feel that way, but still, it is like my brain is a mountain and I am just a guy trying to shove it away, you know?