Last Night was again just another in a long night of disappointing nights. WTF is wrong with me. Why do I attract fat, smelly, old, nasty fags, and tend to get the cold shoulder from the ones that are cute. Then to top it all off I have feelings for some one who wants absolutely nothing to do with me, other then to say hi when I message him then ignore me for the rest of the night.

/wrists that is how I feel right now.

" I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night somewhere, somehow"

In 8 years of sobriety I have never wanted to use this much in my life. FTW

Sometimes when I say "I am okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hold me in their arms tight and say " I know your not"