Ever felt like when you try to do something, and really put the effort in it, just to be yelled at for not even trying?

Well... i sure as heck do...

Just had an argument with my folks regarding jobs, and the fact im still jobless, despite me looking for one.


I mean... its like they though i didnt look for a job at all... that i just... did nothing while my money waisted away.

I dont normally talk back at my folks about anything.... but i was so frustrated, (dunno how i held back saying things that shouldnt be said) i told them in their face that i put a serious effort, only to get nothing, if anyone needed to be frustrated about it, should have been me, not them.

since that argument, i recalled how my life has been since high shcool... and i can think of many instances like such up until today.

i mean, there was times i was happy, got to meet a good friend from Norway, got to go on vacations outside of my province on my own.

Its the things that are important to have a life that really... confound me, wether its education, keeping a job, or looking for a job... i give it my all, just to get nothing out of it.

I just hope i can get out of this problem i seem to have, before it does something i really wont like...

Anyway... sorry for the rant there.... i just needed to vent before i exploded.




Be well everyone.