I'm currently sitting in my car in the Home Depot parking lot waiting for it to open.
My throat feels raw and I'm trying to hold back the tears.
The money I worked six years to save up is leaving my bank account due to a gambling addiction. I wanted the money to go toward improving my life but instead I am throwing it all away to the slot machines. They've got me... because all I am trying to do is win back the money I lost on the previous visit. But they're not going to let me do that. Ever. I'm never going to get a lucky break.
I am a sick person. I don't know how to stop, either.
Even my sleep pattern is completely off daylight hours because of my gambling. I can't have a functional life anymore.