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14 years ago
Commissions: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1690704/
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Ach...my poor head. I have a headache, I'm confused, worried, scared and a whole lot of other things...I need time and space to figure out a lot of things.
Lone wants to know if I want to move over to America and live with him...I definately want to, because he's my mate, and the only one for me. Problem is...doing that would mean completely uprooting myself from here. I feel sure my family wouldn't take kindly to me moving across the globe to live with another guy...they'd probably disown me, or at the very least, my actions could cause another huge rift in the family, and I would hate for that to be on my head.
Don't get me wrong, Lone means the world to me...and if I knew that everything would be fine here, and I could afford to move there, I would. It's just...*sighs* complicated. I'd need a job pretty much as soon as I got there, we'd need a place to stay and everything...all so complicated...
Also, as far as I know, I earn the most in the house. Sad really...and I don't help out nearly as much as I should. I'm worried that something bad will happen if I leave...and I'd have to leave my dog behind as well, which would be almost as hard as leaving the family.
Add in the whole economic problems in the US right now, and I'm worried something will happen to Lone as well. He might now be able to support me while I find my feet...and I would hate to be a burden on him, or anyone. Also...I'm worried I might not be worth the effort. We've only met once...and though it was the most amazing time of my life...I'm worried that some of my idiosyncrases might get too much to bare...
This isn't a pity party, by the way. I just needed to air my feathers, as it were...get all my doubts and thoughts out there. Sorry if I'm boring you or anything...just...needed to vent.
Thanks...
Lone wants to know if I want to move over to America and live with him...I definately want to, because he's my mate, and the only one for me. Problem is...doing that would mean completely uprooting myself from here. I feel sure my family wouldn't take kindly to me moving across the globe to live with another guy...they'd probably disown me, or at the very least, my actions could cause another huge rift in the family, and I would hate for that to be on my head.
Don't get me wrong, Lone means the world to me...and if I knew that everything would be fine here, and I could afford to move there, I would. It's just...*sighs* complicated. I'd need a job pretty much as soon as I got there, we'd need a place to stay and everything...all so complicated...
Also, as far as I know, I earn the most in the house. Sad really...and I don't help out nearly as much as I should. I'm worried that something bad will happen if I leave...and I'd have to leave my dog behind as well, which would be almost as hard as leaving the family.
Add in the whole economic problems in the US right now, and I'm worried something will happen to Lone as well. He might now be able to support me while I find my feet...and I would hate to be a burden on him, or anyone. Also...I'm worried I might not be worth the effort. We've only met once...and though it was the most amazing time of my life...I'm worried that some of my idiosyncrases might get too much to bare...
This isn't a pity party, by the way. I just needed to air my feathers, as it were...get all my doubts and thoughts out there. Sorry if I'm boring you or anything...just...needed to vent.
Thanks...
well by all means, if i dont have my second suit before then i'll be next ti a big blue tiger :)
I'd say it might be better to spend more time with him before you make such a big move. But even if you do see each other next year, that'd only be... what, another week or two together? That's not enough time to really get to know someone.
But I think that true love is worth risking everything for, and I think you'll find a way to make it work. :3
From my past experiences, I see how I am with the person after being with them for a year. If we've been fighting a lot and it's still bad, it's probably not gonna get better. But if we've been getting along, then I think it could last. :3
But then again, that's not true in all cases.
Maybe, before you move there, save up some money--have him look at local apartments or whatever, get an idea for what the average rent is for the type of place you two want to own, and SAVE SAVE SAVE so you have enough saved up to cover rent for a while, if you have trouble getting a job.
And...why can't you take your dog? I think you can take pets overseas...
Problem is, knowing what I know about your family, especially some of the stuff we talked about...you moving to the US to live with Lone could cause issues, for various reasons...
I plan on moving to Sydney next year, and im scared too :X i don't know a thing about Australia, and times will probably be a bit rough for me as well...but as long as i know i have my wolf by my side, ill be fine :) and you will be fine too :) you just gotta believe in yourself labby ^.^
my dear friend,