Okay, I'm just posting this to let off a little steam :c

I absolutely hate being here in California. No offense to any Californians, but god. My family is so Anal about every fucking thing. If I'm on my phone for a couple seconds to take a picture or reply to a text, they scream and bitch at me for being anti-social :/

And there's the matter that I'm a little depressed because I just... I know deep down it's not true, but I just feel worthless :c I've been thinking back a lot on my past, and by god, I never realized how much people have walked all over me and thrown me away like a toy they got bored with :/. I'm so frightened that it might happen again.. Maybe that explains why I'm kinda clingy to the friends that I still have :c

I'm the type of person who fears being alone. In my current relationship, I know that there's little chance of that even happening, but I'm still so unsure deep down inside.. I'm always hesitant about everything, and it doesn't help the fact that I still harbor feelings for a couple of ex's, even though what they did to me was just.. Wrong..

Ugh ;; I need a hug :c And possibly an overdose of Nyquil so I can sleep for like, ever. (Not serious about that last part btw << )