So, today I am going to temp agencies to try and find some jobs. I am scared and honestly I can't say why. I've grown too used to not having a day job and not that I haven't been looking for one, but its just weird getting back into having one.

I've had a strange revelation, though. A day job makes me want to immerse myself in the fandom even more. I enjoy the fandom a great deal already, don't get me wrong, I think a job just makes you want an escape from everything even more. When I worked at a call center, I kept having to remind myself the people I talked to on the phone at the job I probably would never have conversations with ever again. Anxiety would run through my body and sometimes I would have to fight not to go numb.

The counterbalance to the day job was Nbowa's meets every other Monday. They still rejuvenate me like nothing else. The meets usually consist of board games, food, suiting, and all over randomness. I starting going in February and I barely said much at the first meet. Now I have gained so many new friends and they have all given me hope and happiness.

The point is I need to get up off my rump and get work from a temp agency. It may be a pain, but pain is temporary. This is only until I can complete my second degree. Gotta be positive.