So tomorrow is my birthday... I am going to be visiting my parents and staying the night there... Artemis will not be the slightest bit pleased with me for leaving him home alone. I'm sure he will make me suffer for it for days to come.

I have mixed feelings about going to my parent's house as you can imagine. I love them and all but ugh... two days of "boy mode" Oh well I'll go, eat cake, get presents and make them all happy so it's a worthwhile event. I don't generally like my birthday, I have never been able to figure out why but since I moved out I always feel nervous on my birthday. I love being spoiled and getting presents... I guess I just never really do much on my birthday. I envy those that get to go out and eat with friends and laugh and reminisce. Worst of all I feel bad being at my parent's house enjoying their food and gifts while in my head wanting to scream at the self repression. Anyway enough of that.

I hope it will be a good birthday full of laughs and cheer. Who knows, maybe they might surprise me on my birthday and speak openly about my being transgender..not likely but who knows. I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope it's a good birthday, I'll only be 21 once.