I'm ready to get everyone's poison out of my life. Out of my heart, out of my mind. I'm tired of living in a cage. In a close minded society where I'm held down and restrained. I'm tired of everyone and everything. The people around me seem to have this ideal image of me. Little ms. republican. Little ms. scholar. Little ms. obedience. I wish they would tell me what they see because I'm still trying to figure that out. I feel smothered. Smothered by my family, smothered by the people who don't know the real me. The furry. The rabbit. Chiyo. They know what they see, or what they wish to perceive. I'm so tired of hiding. Of being fake. I want to be able to show them me. All of me. But rejection, once again, makes us all into cowards. I cannot be the norm. I want to be the exception to the rule that you all have laid down on me. I'm at a point in my life where I'm leaving my comfort zone and while it's exciting and amazing, it also makes me wonder, can I handle life? Can I handle the challenges thrown at me and the struggles that are sure to follow. I hope so. I'm ready to leave the restrictions that my family has placed on me. I'm ready for a new life and new friends. I'm ready for this new community that has so readily accepted me.
So. The only problem is, they're not.