Paragraph 1: Birthday summery Paragraph 2 onward: Transition Update

So I survived my birthday. It all actually went really well. We all pretended things were fine. It was like the Christmas Truce of World War 1. We all enjoyed eachothers company. When everyone went to bed my mother and I spoke about me being transgender among other tings and I tried to stress to her that this is not a choice I am making and that if I could have it any other way I would. We had some impasses but overall it seemed to sink in for her seeing all of my struggles and the fact that I have seen two therapists at this point and am about to see a third. She knows that transgender people typically don't stay on PEI and that because I love it here so much I am having to work ten times as hard to stay where I am and I think that she is grateful, we're far too close for me to move so far to a big city. Plus I love where I live... it's safe and that is a big thing for me.

So birthday presents consisted of practical things like fly stickers, bread holders and a REALLY SOFT SHIRT!!! I'm wearing it right now and I can't stop touching it and snuggling myself. However the biggest birthday present was something I found after my birthday early in the morning. I was at my parents house watching TV at 4am when they were asleep. My breasts were sore beyond reason so I *ahem* massaged them because it really helps a TON. However when I grabbed them I felt a lump and not just a lump in one spot, my entire breast was raised. I squeezed as anyone would and it felt not like my normal skin... it was extremely soft and squichy. I threw my hands back and took a look...low and behold my breasts had gotten larger. I don't know when it happened as I didn't notice it the day prior... I don't know how fast body stuff grows but it would explain the HORRIFIC growing pains. I took a pictures and emailed them to  sultry and she was surprised from what I could tell.

Now the bad part is that I could see them through my shirt quite well so As soon as I left my parents place  lacerta drove me to my friend Amanda's house and she gave me one of her sports bras that didn't fit her to hold me off until her and I could go shopping for more of them... So here I am at work. Wearing a bra... also I smell different... I can't place it but my scent has changed... it's like I'm wearing perfume. My bra can be seen a bit through my shirt, the spaghetti straps and the front aswell... The time is coming to speak with HR at work... I am hoping I hear about that promotion first so I can secure my position within the company. Also I'm worried my need to look female will superceed my appearance. I hope my face makes more changes fast as I am going full force into womanhood and puberty and "the girls" are not waiting for me. I am amazed at how hard puberty is hitting me but I guess that's a good thing...

Anyway thank you for reading if you have and have a wonderful day. New vlog should be up shortly.

Edit: For those who don't know my birthday was august 2nd... it's passed by 3 days....