Hey guys... sorry my presence hasn't been well made here on FA, except to fap to porn and such. I've been in a like, month long funk... I just quit smoking again, my mother is driving me ape-shit crazy, and all I hear about these days is how the world is coming to an end, and how Obama is evil, and how nobody has any money. Well, guess what? I've NEVER had money anyway, so not much different! I hate when people act like the whole system is going to collapse on itself, like society is some 1000 ton construct being held up by empty promises and political bullshit. Everybody is forgetting the one major component in a society that makes it what it is - and that's people! And people are going to make or break this shit, not whatever Fox News is feeding the airwaves. So chin up, get your shit done, and get a little more in mind set of community and being worth something~

That aside, I've been ultra busy with absolutely nothing else but work and the expectations of my free time from the one who made half of me. I really have had my patience tried, and without the nicotine I really have a hard time accepting how childish the whole situation is. Its like every moronic or sentence that is spoken that I don't really give the breath of air; and I'm talking the exhale, the WASTE I make from breathing and making oxygen, is another brick of my patience being removed from my whole and being spilled on the ground for everything to just smash into little fibers and smear their feet with till there's nothing left but a pile of dust and a broken spirit.

...wait, right, that aside, I'm happy that just about an hour ago, plan "Get back into college with money" is coming underway~ I have gotten the green light to get financial aide and unless I'm mistaken, I can also loan out some stipend action each semester~ I got qualified for $9500, which I am going to take in its full even though my semester and books are paid for already by Pell (and if you knew anything about the state of my finances, you'd agree with me on this) and I'm going to put that money to work for me. I'm finally going to start seeing things like... a vehicle in my name that WORKS for more than a year (gasp!) before having a major malfunction that isn't worth the money to fix. Certain people out there (Yes, I haven't forgotten any of you [...though, nobody would be reading this save maybe one]) will actually GET money from me as I promised years ago. This is such a fucking wonderful step in the right direction that I might actually feel like a PERSON for once in my life again, as I did many years ago~

So~ Wish me luck. Yes, I suck, I haven't written anything still. I'm going to probably end up trying to make up my lateness somehow, but in a way that doesn't require me to do more work. I might give out these stories pro bono :S I feel really bad that its been so long... but that's how my life is, I can't focus on shit, lol.