I decided waiting is the best option for me right now. when i woke up lonely like yesterday, i actually contemplated postponing our relationship. after that sunk in, i realized i'd be even lonelier and throwing away a great opportunity. Both of our situations are going to be changing this month, with school and other things, so judging our near future now is false reasoning. i'm going to put my emotions behind me and be glad with what i do have. it seems i've been taking "us" for granted.

in other news, i can't remember if i made a journal about it yet. i'm coming out to my parents August 20th with my therapist. i'll make a journal when i can about it.