I don't feel like I have a reason to live any more
14 years ago
I feel used.
Chewed up and spat out.
Lied to.
Unimportant
CHEATED
but most of all
Hurt. Deeply, badly, hurt.
I lied when I said I'm ok.
I'm not fucking ok.
I am dying inside.
Chewed up and spat out.
Lied to.
Unimportant
CHEATED
but most of all
Hurt. Deeply, badly, hurt.
I lied when I said I'm ok.
I'm not fucking ok.
I am dying inside.
FA+

or even a close person?
sometimes talking and getting it off your chest can be a massive help, it was for me when I was going through some horrible times.
Understand that you are cared for, by us, your friends, family, everyone. What you need to do, is talk... Maybe not to us, but to someone your can trust. Parents, perhaps a teacher or someone you respect.
Don't be defeated, don't let this beat you, become stronger from it.
We care, okay?
Breakups are almost never gentle or easy things. Once in a great while they are, I suppose, but in most real-world cases, no, they're downright excruciating. As breakups usually take the form of one person approaching the other with "it's not working and I want to end it," there's always one party who feels cheated, betrayed, and frankly, sometimes used. It's hard to think of the breakup as an attempt at honesty, rather than a reminder that the desire to break up probably started before one party even realized there was a problem -- but ultimately, that's what breaking up is; an attempt to come clean, to admit it's not working, and to agree to move on.
The reason is takes a while, in most cases, is that the person initiating the breakup still cares very much about the other person, doesn't want to hurt him/her, and wants to believe that this can be worked through, fixed, the breakup can be avoided. That "I was strung along and used" feeling you talk about is natural, but often, the very reason you were "strung along" was hope on the other person's part that breakup wasn't necessary.
Again, what you're feeling is completely normal. The best advice I can give you is to surround yourself with people who care about you, get as busy as you can be on things that make you happy, and be kind to yourself and to the memories of your ex. I spent a decade of my life being angry at my ex, and all I had to show for it, ultimately, was bitterness.
Remember that you are awesome, and that one day, if you wish to, you will indeed love again. Also remember that the process of starting and ending relationships, painful as it is, teaches us a lot about ourselves and others, and helps us ultimately learn more about what we need in a relationship, and what we have to give in one. Pain is learning, as unpleasant as it can be, and that is the "silver lining" of this moment in your life, as dismal a consolation as that surely.
Your friends love you and care about you. I realize that's not quite the same as the love one has in a relationship, but it's what we have to give you right now. Remember that you are important to us, you are special to us, and we worry about you and want to help you get through this.
You're going to be okay, hon. It gets better. It takes time, but I promise, it does get better. And we'll be here to keep you company, and cheer for you, along the way.
(I hope this is okay. You've talked about your feelings here, so I figured the "don't talk to me about this" request had been superceded.)