went to goschenhoppen in schwanksvill PA
it got my mind off things and was kinda fun

its a folk festival off near collagevill (a lot farmland over there)

the horses were HUGE!!!!!!!!
and it was cool how they made things and stuff
mom wouldnt let me make/buy a cigar >.>
but we got pie (never had it before, and it was GOOD!!!!!)
also, had german dougnuts (fasnochts they were called), they were good
i also have (didnt eat yet) candy thats in the shape of a knife, lol
and also this stuff called potato candy. its a really sugary ball of idk what XDD
oh, and there were this cute little kids chasing some chickens and stuff (live chicken, lol)

oh, and we ran into my cousin zack whos and EMT who showed us around the ambulance and even attached my little bro to a heart monitor to show us how it works and stuff XDDD
it was neet

oh, and before we went to the fair, we went to get me a physical for a learners permit (for driving)
oh, and i accidently got myself in the nuts by dropping a water bottle ;~;

well... thats today....
im actually able to eat today, aposed to yesterday where i couldnt even hold down water.... every sip i just puked back up......
me and connor are at least still brothers, though were not mates, which cheered me up a fair bit, you know?
if i lost him all together.... that would just... kill me...... you know? i still love him, but.. if friends is all we can be.... ill just make the most out of it
and maybe one day we can be together again. i mean........ you know? we can grow up, and once i can see him irl, be with him irl, all will be good. itll be a few years, and im sure well still be friends ^^
and if he doesnt want to get back together then... im sure it wont be a big deal ^^




anyway... brief update on life (mainly today) and my mental state




thanks for dealing with me guys and girls