So ima use it to get some things off my chest just because i dont want them cooped up any more.

I think i may be coming to the realization that i am emotionally needy, and thats not a fun realization to come too. Over the past 3 years i have gotten really close to a couple of people i enjoyed that it helped me get though things and i think it helped them. But i fear i may have become to emotional attached to them. One of them pulled away and i never hear from, it still hurts but i am slowly getting or trying to get over that , its hard but im working on that. Another while still around is not around as much and i feel the early signs of pulling away forever. And i cant help wondering if i am at fault for being needy or if i should get emotions back.

Its obnoxious not knowing if im just terrible at close friendships or what ever. I think i may go back to counseling when school starts to figure this out but its one of those eating lil things that drive people mad.

Maybe i just need to find someone since i havnt dated since high school, but idk if that is the right path since i may be an emotional train wreck :/

I do know that i wana be their and be available to help my friends maybe i just need to grow up all i know is i didnt want to just bottle this up forever.

It is also in no way an attack i dont wana be that kind of person, this is just for me to vent my feelings.