Im tired

Very tired, of feeling as if I have to please everyone all the time. I'm just one lion, and one person. Granted I'm a gemini and I have two sides to me, I highly doubt you really wanna meet my other side. I make mistakes I make really mean jokes about myself, I know I do this and usually its to help me. usually if I don't it hurts worse then keeping it inside. If I say it out loud and actually hear it I hear how ridiculous it sounds. And then there are times where I just make jokes. I am sorry x.x I want to please everyone all the time, but its getting really really hard and compromising my own happiness. Which means Im gonna have to start caring about myself again.