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One Crazy Lady and a wonderful Life lesson all in one day.
14 years ago
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I'm going to start by admitting something I'm not proud of, I suffer bouts of paranoia from time to time. After so many wild changes in my life even the smallest decision makes me wonder what horrible fate is going to ultimately result. Hesitation and fear rule my life, that was until fate gave me a lesson I will never forget.
My trip home on the LA subway was pretty standard until the train just stopped right after it began rolling away from the platform. In the same rail car I was in I look over and see someone had pulled the emergency door switch, halting the train half way into the tunnel. In the frame of the door was this confused middle aged woman standing there with the look of a hunted animal in her eyes. There she stood for several minutes with her dinky little rolling suitcase jamming the door open. Moments pass and more and more people are getting pissed and mumbling under their breath. Eventually I get up and ask her point blank, "What's wrong?". With that scared look in her eye she says "I'm not sure if I should stay or if I should go".
At this point i'm saying in my head 'Bitch, I can tell you what five hundred angry people late for work are saying right now'. Instead I just hold my tongue as the driver walks back there and scares the lady with his big self. Eventually some random guy actually walks off the train and leads her away.
Imagine being so unsure about your next decision that you have to hold up an entire subway train to make it. She acted as if her fearful decision was so damned important that she had the right to interrupt five hundred people's plans and schedules..not to mention make the train that's only fifteen minutes away form us crash into our asses. That's when I realized that being paranoid is just another way of being selfish. We worry about what the world is going do to us, how people think about us, what plans they may have with us. In truth the world doesn't revolve around you. Sure, there are real things to fear out there, but constantly fearing fates wrath is just putting far too much stock on your little and ultimately petty life.
So, when you are feeling singled out or worried just remember that you're not *that* important.
My trip home on the LA subway was pretty standard until the train just stopped right after it began rolling away from the platform. In the same rail car I was in I look over and see someone had pulled the emergency door switch, halting the train half way into the tunnel. In the frame of the door was this confused middle aged woman standing there with the look of a hunted animal in her eyes. There she stood for several minutes with her dinky little rolling suitcase jamming the door open. Moments pass and more and more people are getting pissed and mumbling under their breath. Eventually I get up and ask her point blank, "What's wrong?". With that scared look in her eye she says "I'm not sure if I should stay or if I should go".
At this point i'm saying in my head 'Bitch, I can tell you what five hundred angry people late for work are saying right now'. Instead I just hold my tongue as the driver walks back there and scares the lady with his big self. Eventually some random guy actually walks off the train and leads her away.
Imagine being so unsure about your next decision that you have to hold up an entire subway train to make it. She acted as if her fearful decision was so damned important that she had the right to interrupt five hundred people's plans and schedules..not to mention make the train that's only fifteen minutes away form us crash into our asses. That's when I realized that being paranoid is just another way of being selfish. We worry about what the world is going do to us, how people think about us, what plans they may have with us. In truth the world doesn't revolve around you. Sure, there are real things to fear out there, but constantly fearing fates wrath is just putting far too much stock on your little and ultimately petty life.
So, when you are feeling singled out or worried just remember that you're not *that* important.
