Title says it all basically. My life has turned to shit and I have nowhere else to vent but here. The woman I spent over 2 years pouring my heart and soul into left because "God told her to" I've graduated school, and after over a year finally found a contracted position doing consulting, but i haven't worked in about 8 weeks now. I am living at home, can't stand it, don't have the money or means to move out, and to make it worse, my dad is losing his job (of 30 years) because It's being outsourced. I can't sleep, I'm pissed as hell. I'm confused at God. I have nowhere to go and nothing to do and won't really have much of a home in a few months.

I just fucking hate life right now.

There's no way to sugar coat it. I mean, it was bad before, but at least I had my beat friend to lean on...now she's gone and i don't know what to do... I found another girl i like, started to move on a little bit, and my mom just freaked because what if she comes back? Now I'm doubting everything again, and that thin little bit of happiness I had started to cultivate in my life was just crushed. (Don't worry about me though, I may be mad as hell, and depressed and crying and junk, but I'm not suicidal, suicide is for people who can't deal with this shit. I can deal with it, it just doesn't make it any less shitty... My life right now sucks. Fuck life. I don't want your damn lemons!

/end rant