I'm gonna spare all of you the vast majority of the details, but pretty much I've got creditors threatening me because I'm having difficulty paying my student loans since I'm only making 600 dollars a month. Food/gasoline/car insurance comes first, and whatever's left over goes to paying loans. That doesn't work anymore, as my savings have shrunken significantly with me dipping into them every month.

Yeah I kinda bought the monitor mentioned in my last journal on impulse as something to help cheer me up, and I really shouldn't have. Too late to return it though.

My dad is almost done with the wage garnishment they imposed on him for 6 months after my parents filed bankruptcy, but unfortunately his hours have been cut and he may be laid off entirely from the retail job he got last year. Given my monthly income, I've had to rely on my parents for housing and such since every apartment in existence is more a month than my total paycheck. I'm not so certain that will be doable anymore.

Things have been on a steep downhill track for me these past three years, and I'm not sure how far down the bottom is, nor how long I'll be there. Needless to say this has killed any kind of mood to do much of anything at all, most certainly erotic art. I go to draw something and it seems like nothing more than an uphill battle and a struggle.

So that's why I haven't posted anything lately and why it may be several months before I post anything serious again. And, I hate to say it, but if things continue the way they are going, I may not have a means with which to do art nor to communicate with anyone online in the near future.