you have one week
14 years ago
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Before I purge my gallery with holy flame.
Save what you want.
edit: my close friend phantasmagora suggested that I just take some time away from the internet instead. maybe she's right and I'll feel better about myshitart afterwards.
Save what you want.
edit: my close friend phantasmagora suggested that I just take some time away from the internet instead. maybe she's right and I'll feel better about my
FA+

artists doing the same recently. ^^
what you got to do. As long as you don't disappear from the site like
many others. ;D
holyshit my subconcious is a plagiarist @.@
Wish you have a good time but please come back one day, as you're really awesome artist! I'm totally in love with your art - from the day 1st i saw it ^___^
this has absolutely nothing to do with what people have said or because I don't feel appreciated. neither am I RAEGQUITTING FA; I'll still be here, involved with the fandom and looking art. I, however, have come to a point where I, personally, feel that I simply do not want my art in the public domain any further due to my own opinions of it. I also feel that comparing nuking a gallery to someone committing suicide is highly insulting and ignorant in regards to people who deal with suicide on a daily basis. the idea that suicide victims are always quiet about their issues and simply off themselves is a bit of a pretentious myth. many, many people will seek help and discuss their feelings before the inevitable hopelessness takes over and they decide to take their own lives.
that being said, warning one's watchers about a potential gallery clearing is not so much a cry for attention but rather the opportunity to give them the chance to save whatever images they enjoy, so that they may continue to enjoy them, regardless of whether or not there is a gallery online for them to view them on.
Apologies for the insult, but apparently your experience and my experience with suicide are different. I've personal involvement over the decades with several cases of 'we had no idea...' type events.
I'm only stating opinions from the other side of the fence, the people that watch the creators and their work. Of course it's your work and FA neither charges or penalizes for whatever action you take, but it does leave several watchers scratching their collective heads as to why someone would do this.
As I stated in the second, unconnected post, being able to see where an artist came from, their 'roots' in creativity, is one of the nicer aspects of online image boards such as this.
I'll put it this way, I personally value what you've put online, and I have referenced your creation and photography to other people, especially those involving aviation, as: 'See, that's what I mean, that's what it feels like.' So, to see something removed which I can personally identify with, hurts. And it hurts even more not being able to reference it with other people.
Of course I could save every last image, but if I was to do that, with every image/gallery I found worth saving... I would quickly run out of drive space, not to mention become an impossible task of indexing.
Anyway, such if life and entropy reigns supreme. I was only wanting to offer some differing opinions.
I didn't want to go into detail because I just. don't want to start up any potential drama or get dozen of comments trying to convince me otherwise of my decisions and why I've chosen to make them. I too, know what its like to follow various artists and be utterly confused as to why they would keep deleting their galleries or just sporadic works without notice. but ultimately, I've also come to learn that as you create art, you develop personal attachments to your work- various images have various meanings and memories behind them. sometimes something will happen to an artist and a certain image, or even their whole gallery will bring back some bitter memories that are best left forgotten.
for the longest time, art was always a priority in my life and truth be told, I have paid dearly for that. I've lost a lot of friends, reduced my social life, gave up other hobbies, and failed school on multiple occasions because all I'd rather do was art. it was like an addiction that seemed rather benign at first but ultimately proved to be seriously detrimental, and as my life has progressed, I've been growing more and more aware of that fact. it's an incredibly lonely life when all you do is draw and talk to people online to feed your social starvation. incredibly so, and as someone who battles with depression on a daily basis, it's taken a serious toll on me mentally, to the point where. I just can't draw anymore, which feeds into a vicious cycle where I must feed into this addiction, but I'm far too exhausted to.
in that regard, I feel as though looking at my gallery is just a painful reminder of what I've given up and what I've lost in the name of creating art. why would anyone want to keep something around that only brings up painful memories? when I say my gallery makes me cringe, its not that I think my art is bad, but rather because it hurts me to have to face it on a[or almost] daily basis.
and like my entry edit states, I'm going to take my friend's advice and just. step away from everything for awhile and see how I feel about it when I come back. my initial intent was to just delete everything except the pieces I've drawn for others after a week's time, but I think she's right in suggesting that I take a break and try to think things over.
I completely understand how personally attached one can become to their works, and how they can reflect their lives, the associations and memories which are brought up.
I appreciate your taking the time to explain your position (I'm sure many others here do as well) So I can offer only this bit of advice:
Nothing quite offers fresh perspective like temporarily removing yourself from the equation. I think your friends advise is well warranted, and we'll all still be here when you return. :}
Seeing the progression of your art, from the first to the last, takes the viewer along for how you improved and changed over the years. You might hate your older work, but it helps the watcher connect.
also, i hope you are doing well. my best wishes are with you and your kin <3
[on another note: i wanted to send you a post card, so i PM'd you about a month ago for your postal address - you're gonna answer that some day, right? not stressing you there, just wanna make sure it's not been lost on the way...]
now that I remember, I have an e-mail in my drafts I was typing up before being called out to work. I WILL FINISH IT. and confirm all the details and shtuff.
Most of my art is/was stored online... There are many times I think back to a piece, or wish to compare to what I do now... but it's all gone..