Is it really faith if you dont believe it will ever be rewarded? Like for example, I live life always trying to be pious, staying positive, and doing the right thing, in hopes that someday things will get better, yet at the same time expect only disappointment from the future. Is it really faith if you don't believe it? Somedays it just feels like "what's the fucking point?" It seems like a great big paradox or conundrum and the more I think about it the less sense it makes, it's starting to give me a headache. :(