Why do we, as furs mainly, put our emotions, our hearts on the line only to have them ripped apart? i know its life and life sucks at times, but it seems so much more prevalent in this fandom then in the normal world, seems Ive never had to deal with this same stuff before i joined the fandom, then once i joined its been a never ending stream of dashed hope, failed dreams, deceit, and an ocean of lies and heartache. So why do we do it? especially furs, it seems like we get off on doing this to one another. I wonder why I or anyone stays in this fandom at times if this is what we consider fun to do.

What i truly don't understand is why does someone feel the need to spread deceit about how they feel and then turn around and (i hate using the phrase "stab in the back") but basically stab you. I've been through heart break, ive cried myself to sleep before, and it seems deceit hurts the worst over all of it. Im a man, how about you be one to and just tell me how it is rather then put on a smile and tell me what i wanna hear???

idk it just seems like my influence (what little i ever had) is being phased out, not really feeling the love of friends anymore and wonder how many truly care about me, and almost feel like im being outcast-ed or overshadowed. idk how much longer i can take furry drama crap, maybe getting into this fandom was a mistake from the beginning...

I dont mean to rant, as many of you know i dont do it much, i prefer to deal with my own problems on my own, but you know..its like the old question says, where do hero's go when they need help, while i hardly consider myself a hero by any means, but the question stands and is my reason for writing this.