Horrible, horrible weekend.
14 years ago
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Trip to, heave and ho; Up, down, to and fro- You have no word
Sorry for the lack of updates guys.. The past weekend has been rough and I don't think it's going to get much better.
-First experience hitting an animal.
I was driving at night, the speed limit was 30, I was going 25mph because I don't like night driving. the streets where I drive do not have any source of light because the city is too cheap to buy street lights and so it is incredibly hard to see. From the corner of my eye I see two giant raccoons chasing each other, and so I swerve and slam on my breaks, and one smacks into the side of my car. Not sure whether I ran him over or not, I stopped and got out to check on it but he ran off and there was no blood or anything. Regardless, I am now terrified of driving at night and I feel horrible about it. It's not like it was in my direct control; He was not out in the street and he was the one who hit my car, but still. That sort of thing really gets to me.
My wrist is getting worse.
So, My doctor has been blowing off my emails and my wrist is hurting bad. Concerns me because it's my writing, drawing, and dominant hand. My job requires me to lift heavy stuff and work intensively using my hands, and so whenever i'm at work it's constantly sore. Sometimes I feel a surging pain shoot up from my wrist to my forearm and elbow.. Has anyone ever had arm injury? Does this sound like nerve damage to you guys? What should I do?
I am working on commissions, slowly. Having a job, classes every day, and doing art as well as other chores is a challenge, so I thank you all for being patient. I'll try and get more art up soon.
I've been feeling really detached from society lately. Anyone who knows me IRL will know i'm not exactly the most bubbly personality, although I try to be nice and respectful, I don't really know how to be social. I don't really know what to say. In turn I feel like I don't really fit in. This isn't really me "bawwing" or pulling a woe-is-me, but I feel like i should write/type my thoughts out. I wish I was braver and more outgoing.
How is everyone else doing?
I hope all is well with you guys. <3
-First experience hitting an animal.
I was driving at night, the speed limit was 30, I was going 25mph because I don't like night driving. the streets where I drive do not have any source of light because the city is too cheap to buy street lights and so it is incredibly hard to see. From the corner of my eye I see two giant raccoons chasing each other, and so I swerve and slam on my breaks, and one smacks into the side of my car. Not sure whether I ran him over or not, I stopped and got out to check on it but he ran off and there was no blood or anything. Regardless, I am now terrified of driving at night and I feel horrible about it. It's not like it was in my direct control; He was not out in the street and he was the one who hit my car, but still. That sort of thing really gets to me.
My wrist is getting worse.
So, My doctor has been blowing off my emails and my wrist is hurting bad. Concerns me because it's my writing, drawing, and dominant hand. My job requires me to lift heavy stuff and work intensively using my hands, and so whenever i'm at work it's constantly sore. Sometimes I feel a surging pain shoot up from my wrist to my forearm and elbow.. Has anyone ever had arm injury? Does this sound like nerve damage to you guys? What should I do?
I am working on commissions, slowly. Having a job, classes every day, and doing art as well as other chores is a challenge, so I thank you all for being patient. I'll try and get more art up soon.
I've been feeling really detached from society lately. Anyone who knows me IRL will know i'm not exactly the most bubbly personality, although I try to be nice and respectful, I don't really know how to be social. I don't really know what to say. In turn I feel like I don't really fit in. This isn't really me "bawwing" or pulling a woe-is-me, but I feel like i should write/type my thoughts out. I wish I was braver and more outgoing.
How is everyone else doing?
I hope all is well with you guys. <3
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I got hit by a semi on my motorcycle if that makes you feel any better? how? I'm not sure. sharing pain maybe?
I got T-boned by a ford aerostar going 60ish mph in a little compact car a few years back? Got bad back issues, but i'm more worried about my wrist, only because it controls everything I put onto paper D:
For social situations, I'm the same way. What I find helps is try to pry slightly into someone's life, awkwardly phrased as that is. I ask them how their day has been, or if they're carrying a ton of stuff, I ask what it's for. If it opens up into a rant or a story, I listen. If they explain and the conversation dies, it dies. Then again, my only social interactions are usually at work, so I only get short bursts, rather than a long strech, of conversation with people.
As for myself, I can't complain. Fumbling with Photoshop, pretending I have any idea of what I'm doing. Working shifts I'm not supposed to so I'm exhausted, but college semester starts next week so that should help with that stress.
I've been trying to be better. I actually say little things like how you suggested; I'll ask people how they are, how they've been, what's new, etc. I'm a much better listener than I am a talker, so it's nice to be able to listen to people's stories. It's just pushing myself into conversation, you know? A lot of events in my life have led me to be shy and not come up with a good conversation of my own, so it's just the fear in the back of my mind of blatant rejection. The few friends I have though, are amazing ones. They see my true colours because they've dealt with me long enough I guess :P
Well I hope you're having fun with photoshop. I've never been too great with it myself, likely because I don't have any full version and I don't spend enough time trying. But you ought to post some stuff! :) I'd love to see it.
And yea; The only real silver lining for me with school is the hours of my work being shortened a bit. Unfortunately though, I wont be getting payed as much, so it's tough either way D: I hope you fare better. Good luck in schooling!
As for Photoshop and posting stuff, I have no idea about the policy of the site on stuff like scraps and doodles. I have a 15 minute sketch that I really like, but I haven't done anything with it. (It'll be a full piece eventually -- I just like how the base anatomy came out, minus the small problems with it.) I know some sites are strict on stuff like "It must be a completed piece", while others don't care. Haven't found anything one way or another, so I assume it's just sort of personal preference. . .
I only work part-time, due to laws and regulations. (Out-of-country student.) I'm limited to 20 hours a week. So the hours are filled easily. Hopefully stuff works out for you, though. Getting paid less always sucks. :(
I think as long as it's actual art, no matter if it's a doodle or a sketch, s fine. There's the scrap folder, after all. :) I want to see the doodle! I've seen a lot of WIPs in scraps, so.. I'm sure it's alright.
(This was all I could really find in the Acceptable Upload Policy:
The Scraps Folder
The "Scraps" folder exists to provide users a place to store images that are in progress, are unfinished, or that the user feels are not "gallery-worthy". It is not for images which violate the AUP, and submissions in the Scraps folder must abide by all AUP restrictions.
Standards of Quality
FA does not judge submissions based on artistic merit. We do, however, have baseline quality guidelines to help improve the overall acceptability of images on the site. We do not permit images or photographs which are out of focus, grainy, blurry, skewed (e.g. rotated 90 degrees), washed-out, poorly lit, or otherwise hard to see. Quality exceptions are made on case-by-case basis wherein certain effects and techniques are deemed to be used with artistic merit (e.g. simulating aged photo))
Im sure it'll be okay. n_n
Yikes! Stupid laws and regulations... Thank you very much though. I appreciate your support. :)
I feel a bit silly. Completely overlooked that section of the Knowledgebase. Derp.
And sure thing. :)
I'm sorry for your pain in your wrist, I would say find a cream to take and sooth the pain. I usually buy this organic oil I get from an native american I know. I can ask what could help for your injury. And your doctor is mean, what could correct the pain? Surgery? Or maybe therapy would help. Either way I wish you luck with that pain.
I understand what you go through once it comes to beig social. Usually I need someone I know well to interact with strangers or something in common. Take it slow first, meet someone of your moms friends or someone you know well enough to be comfortable. I'm not comfortable though not that I don't fit in cause I don't but it doesn't bother me but because of my physical form. I'm glad to be different than to fit in and be like everyone else. Your an awesome person Icykat! <3
And how am I? Sick! Oh I got the worst cold ever. And the doctor said it wasn't strep so I'm glad. I got a flu shot. I like getting shots, is that weird? But that's about it in life. Don't overwork yourself! When you need a break, take it.
There was nothing I could do. But yeah, I was in total shock and was shaking a little bit when I got home, and now I'm driving even slower at night. It sucks. But yeah, I mean I pulled over and looked around, it had run off with the other one. So i'm thinking what happened was when it ran out, it hit it's body into the side of my car where the door/wheel cover is and bounced off of that. I'm hoping thats what happened, anyway. But no blood or fur or anything on the road or my car, so i'm hoping it lives.
I'm thinking about creams or something.. Only problem is fiding something that actually works, you know? A lot of those things are really expensive, and I can't afford it. I have found though, that wrapping it up helps. The only problem with that is, when it's bound up, It's hard to move it. So I can't draw or bend my wrist when it's wrapped. xD Thank you though, You're sweet. I'll just have to deal.
Hehe, I actually get a long great with my mum's friends and my grandmother's friends because i'm so respectful; I hear them saying "You're my unofficial daughter" or "I wish my kids were like you" a lot. Although i'm not sure they'd want a treehugging bum who doesn't know what she wants to do with her life. x3 Not exactly a prime occupation; I just like to be respectful. I dunno, it seems like all my IRL friends really like me. It's just i'm not able to hang with most as they are either out of state or our schedules don't mesh up. One nice thing about internets is that it breaks down major social barriers I guess, because even in knowing someone you are a little bit anonymous. I always prefer letters over email and other things, though. I love lettarz!
You're sick?
.....ICYkat is not responsible for giving you a COLD. >> << Wasn't me dude, I swear.
Aww, I hope you feel better soon though. Sneezing and hacking is no fun at all. And.. You LIKE shots? ;; I wish I were as brave as you! I'm absolutely terrified of shots.
Here's to hoping you bet better, ASAP. ;; -Tosses some of her antibodies over the internet-
Ohh I HATED getting shots when I was smaller, they literally had to hold me down to give it to me a shot but I got over my fears a few years ago. And once I got tattoo I'm not scared of needles. It's just a sting that last for a while. Just have to tell yourself that. Lately I've been wanting to get more tattoos, like a craving. I'm so wierd.
I really enjoy my older friends better than those I graduated with. And I feel more comfortable with people who are older than me. Most of my age group act out too much and annoy me, it takes a lot to annoy me. Usually I hang out with a crowd who's within their 20s even early 30s. Again I'm weird and too mature for my age.
And no it's not your fault. Can a Icykat give people colds? xD well now that I'm fully done moving, my friends brought their sick kids and that's how I got sick. Dang children. :c Thank you. Your too kind to me. I hope I feel better after a couple days.
Your awesome! <3 <3 <3
I know what you mean about the detached thing. I feel the exact same way, but hate venting because I feel overdramatic when I do it.
Aww, well, everyone has different ways of venting. I have a lot of built up stress, so I either complain a lot or just have a big ranty vent, or draw lots of crazy depressing pictures.
If yew ever need to vent, i'm a good listener. No thoughts of overdrama here. :)
I once ran over a little snake....while on my bike and i felt HORRIBLE about it! I was like depressed for days because of it and because i love snakes! so i know your personal pain on that
As far as your wrist perhaps you should find a new doctor? Maybe he/she is too busy to read your emails, I dont know but im not justifying them ignoring you when your clearly in pain.
I'm thinking about finding a new one, or complaining or something. But i'll email her one more time I guess.. ask her if she got my email, or what she thinks I should do. if I don't get a response or if she blows me off, then i'm switching her out. I know there is damage, I know it hurts, and I wan't to know what is causing it, where, and what I can do about it.
It kinda makes me a little mad that your being ignored, its like a slap in the face. like your problem isnt worth her time or something. I would think if she gave you her email address she would be more than willing to hear you out without making an appt or something. but yeah, i would give it one more try but if not then its time for a replacement o-o
Get better soon, IK<3
Hope things get better for you soon, darling :<