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Confession tiem
14 years ago
Hah, ruse of the moment, but I think it's about time to clear up my conscience a bit. Some people will recognize it, the people who don't will laugh because they're smart enough to understand what's going on by reading the hindsight. Anyway, first a quick introduction, and then the rest. Feel free to skeep the intro.
Backstory; I'm a liar (feel free to skip to the confession part)
Lying is something that's integrated to me. It's an automatic skill that activates without me consciously realizing it. It's a self-defense system; whenever I feel attacked, or if someone is asking a question purely for the sake of mocking me with the answer, I somehow know that and it triggers a lying system in which I fire off bollocks with deadly precision. I can really think up an excuse for anything at the moment, even if you catch me red-handed. Now most people who have a higher IQ or more life experience than me usually see through; I'm not an expert. It's why I never lied to the people I know are intelligent (and non-American, I have lied to one intelligent American at least). But through text and words and nothing with it, lying is even easier. Quite like sarcasm. It's something that just... triggers, I don't consciously help it. Oftentimes it's harmless and with people I trust, I rarely feel the need to lie; I don't fear confrontation or embarassment as long as it strengthens a bond or which has me better off in the end. But there's one thing that I've been keeping up for a long while, and some people may have suspected it, others probably didn't care, but I know that it'll change the view at least some people have of me. It's a bit painful to admit, but it's for the greater good and everything. I'd go like "I don't care if you comment" but then I'd be lying, because I care about the opinions of my close friends, they're the only opinions I DO care about, so y'know... Don't hold back I guess? Not sure what to say, let's just get this over with.
The confession; I'm not trained
*Sighs* It's a painful thing, I've told many of you that I'm a trained fighter, had MMA/boxing class for 2 years. In truth, the combat experience I have is sparring with a classmate who's done kickboxing so could teach me here and there a bit, and then that one time some guys attempted to mug me. That's the extent of it. I have a natural talent for fighting however, I understand techniques simply by looking at them (doesn't say I can execute them; merely that I understand the use and how they should be executed) and I have some sort of great understanding of the human body without ever having gone deep into biology. I blame Robert (
ragnar-helghow ) for that though, him and his insurmountable memory and unbelievable number of useless facts that always turn out to be useful at some point in life. Regardless, I can fight, but I'm not trained. The realistic rp'ing I can do with it is experience, trial and error, and as aforementioned, understanding of how things and people work purely from knowledge and then combining that with huge imagination and the unnecessarily big sense of realism to come to something that... Well most of you've experienced how well I can usually rp.
I could put some inb4's here, but I really can't be arsed. Fire when ready.
Backstory; I'm a liar (feel free to skip to the confession part)
Lying is something that's integrated to me. It's an automatic skill that activates without me consciously realizing it. It's a self-defense system; whenever I feel attacked, or if someone is asking a question purely for the sake of mocking me with the answer, I somehow know that and it triggers a lying system in which I fire off bollocks with deadly precision. I can really think up an excuse for anything at the moment, even if you catch me red-handed. Now most people who have a higher IQ or more life experience than me usually see through; I'm not an expert. It's why I never lied to the people I know are intelligent (and non-American, I have lied to one intelligent American at least). But through text and words and nothing with it, lying is even easier. Quite like sarcasm. It's something that just... triggers, I don't consciously help it. Oftentimes it's harmless and with people I trust, I rarely feel the need to lie; I don't fear confrontation or embarassment as long as it strengthens a bond or which has me better off in the end. But there's one thing that I've been keeping up for a long while, and some people may have suspected it, others probably didn't care, but I know that it'll change the view at least some people have of me. It's a bit painful to admit, but it's for the greater good and everything. I'd go like "I don't care if you comment" but then I'd be lying, because I care about the opinions of my close friends, they're the only opinions I DO care about, so y'know... Don't hold back I guess? Not sure what to say, let's just get this over with.
The confession; I'm not trained
*Sighs* It's a painful thing, I've told many of you that I'm a trained fighter, had MMA/boxing class for 2 years. In truth, the combat experience I have is sparring with a classmate who's done kickboxing so could teach me here and there a bit, and then that one time some guys attempted to mug me. That's the extent of it. I have a natural talent for fighting however, I understand techniques simply by looking at them (doesn't say I can execute them; merely that I understand the use and how they should be executed) and I have some sort of great understanding of the human body without ever having gone deep into biology. I blame Robert (
ragnar-helghow ) for that though, him and his insurmountable memory and unbelievable number of useless facts that always turn out to be useful at some point in life. Regardless, I can fight, but I'm not trained. The realistic rp'ing I can do with it is experience, trial and error, and as aforementioned, understanding of how things and people work purely from knowledge and then combining that with huge imagination and the unnecessarily big sense of realism to come to something that... Well most of you've experienced how well I can usually rp.I could put some inb4's here, but I really can't be arsed. Fire when ready.
I mean I don't care if you lied about your RL, this is the internet, it's untrustworthy.
I'm really not sure how to feel about this. I won't give you the 'huggles' comment Taren did over on your DA account, that's for sure. He might be able to accept hanging around a pathological liar, but that's far less easier for me to swallow. I build relationships based on being able to trust the other person. And lying is counter-productive to that.
It calls into question anything you've ever told me, including this journal. For all I know, it is some big lie itself. An "I got you" moment to its readers. An "I'm not really a liar" journal entry later on, perhaps, or a "J/K LOL, my bad!" reply just as examples. No one has seemed to even question why a self-admitted pathological liar would openly post about himself being what he's professing to be.
Presuming you are telling the truth now in regard to your martial arts experience, the only good thing about it means that my ability to kick your ass in a real spar just went up by a couple of notches.
Would not really call myself a pathological liar, but again, feel free to slap stickers on it as much as you want, should that make it more bearable for you.