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14 years ago
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things I have learned in the past week:
-no, the person doing the filing before you really did just fill the cabinet with random folders.
-there is always someone worse off than you are.
-tomorrow comes whether you like it or not. deal with it.
-objects in mirror are closer than they appear.
-whether or not mysogyny is more institutionalized than mysandry is irrelevant to the fact that flipping your shit over a potentially offensive remark regarding women while using genderbased slurs against men makes you a raging hypocrite.
-if you're in need of vitamin C, make pine needle tea- pound for pound, they contain more than three times the amount of vitamin C that oranges do.
-take constructive criticism as a means to improve yourself, not as an insult to your character.
-ant eggs taste like delightful slivers of lemon.
-there's no such thing as failure unless you have exhausted every other option to overcome it.
-your mom enjoys a triple grilled cheese sandwich after hot, hot, passionate sex.
-genderwank brings out the little shits in all of us.
-heavy metal is not the work of the devil.
-sometimes the way to deal with something is to do something about it.
-everyone feels like crap sometimes.
-covering yourself with glowing paint isn't sexy. don't do that.
-sometimes the people you think are actually creepers will end up being your closest allies.
-don't snort fireants. that's fucking retarded.
-"THEY'RE MAKING A SEX!!!" will be the most memorable comment you will ever receive on a clean image.
in other news, I've started school again. taking community development/community economic development, natural disasters, and English "cultures". and somehow balancing work on top of it.
speaking of work; I managed to get fired and rehired in one day.
I'll leave the prior entry up- I know I go through a lot of ups and downs regarding how I personally feel about my art[it's not quality related, seriously; I love my art and can be exceptionally proud of what I've done], but its rare that I publicly act out regarding it, or even consider things so drastic as removing EVERYTHING. I've done it once before, with my older [five] themed work, but I also have no regrets regarding that, since it was due to being brutally called out and accused of being something that I'm truly not. and since people will ask; I was heavily criticized for apparently trying to become the artist Jennadelle in both my art[since she and I have very similar interests] and appearances[they ACTUALLY tried to link wearing bandannas with hoodies to her]. it. honestly made me feel sick to my stomach, considering that J and I had talked previously and had moreorless gotten along, not to mention that she said she was sick of the constant drama being made in her name regarding "idea theft". I've always gone through life under the belief that you should only ever strive to become yourself, not someone else. it's great to have people to look up to and aspire to be like, but you should never really want to /become/ them. J and I were just on an informal conversational basis and I was heavily[and would constantly mention this] inspired by sulacoyote's work, who. was also who inspired J. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that it hurt seeing my hard work picked apart like that and knowing that it not only hurt myself, but someone else, who otherwise, just wanted to see any drama related to her, end.
and removing it felt as though a great weight was dropped off my shoulders. I can look back at my older stuff and not so much feel ashamed, but rather sad that all my hard work ended up inadvertently hurting someone at the hands of someone else, who was entirely bitter[and had creepily stalked my galleries for over a year]. it's up now, in a separate gallery, but only because I just. I felt bad everytime someone would note or e-mail me asking for a copy of an image because they didn't manage to save it.
I mean. ultimately, sometimes I feel utterly trapped between a rock and a hard place; I have urges to clear everything out just so I can try starting on a clean slate as far as the visual gallery is concerned, but I also don't want to simply take everything away from the people who have helped me not only improve as an artist, but as a person. which. was why I assumed just giving everyone a simple heads up regarding the gallery sweep was a better idea than going into great detail about everything.
but. my good friend phantasmagora was right in her advice to take some time away and focus on other things in my life. and. I honestly can't thank her enough for being such a loyal and honest friend[who you all should watch for her amazing art skills] to me, and for being someone who honestly understands everything that frustrates me about participating and posting art online[and vice versa]. I can't really say that I'm "back", but. I'm feeling better, and I'll start getting to work on everything. the internet is still just too busy and hectic of a place for my exhausted brain.
-no, the person doing the filing before you really did just fill the cabinet with random folders.
-there is always someone worse off than you are.
-tomorrow comes whether you like it or not. deal with it.
-objects in mirror are closer than they appear.
-whether or not mysogyny is more institutionalized than mysandry is irrelevant to the fact that flipping your shit over a potentially offensive remark regarding women while using genderbased slurs against men makes you a raging hypocrite.
-if you're in need of vitamin C, make pine needle tea- pound for pound, they contain more than three times the amount of vitamin C that oranges do.
-take constructive criticism as a means to improve yourself, not as an insult to your character.
-ant eggs taste like delightful slivers of lemon.
-there's no such thing as failure unless you have exhausted every other option to overcome it.
-your mom enjoys a triple grilled cheese sandwich after hot, hot, passionate sex.
-genderwank brings out the little shits in all of us.
-heavy metal is not the work of the devil.
-sometimes the way to deal with something is to do something about it.
-everyone feels like crap sometimes.
-covering yourself with glowing paint isn't sexy. don't do that.
-sometimes the people you think are actually creepers will end up being your closest allies.
-don't snort fireants. that's fucking retarded.
-"THEY'RE MAKING A SEX!!!" will be the most memorable comment you will ever receive on a clean image.
in other news, I've started school again. taking community development/community economic development, natural disasters, and English "cultures". and somehow balancing work on top of it.
speaking of work; I managed to get fired and rehired in one day.
I'll leave the prior entry up- I know I go through a lot of ups and downs regarding how I personally feel about my art[it's not quality related, seriously; I love my art and can be exceptionally proud of what I've done], but its rare that I publicly act out regarding it, or even consider things so drastic as removing EVERYTHING. I've done it once before, with my older [five] themed work, but I also have no regrets regarding that, since it was due to being brutally called out and accused of being something that I'm truly not. and since people will ask; I was heavily criticized for apparently trying to become the artist Jennadelle in both my art[since she and I have very similar interests] and appearances[they ACTUALLY tried to link wearing bandannas with hoodies to her]. it. honestly made me feel sick to my stomach, considering that J and I had talked previously and had moreorless gotten along, not to mention that she said she was sick of the constant drama being made in her name regarding "idea theft". I've always gone through life under the belief that you should only ever strive to become yourself, not someone else. it's great to have people to look up to and aspire to be like, but you should never really want to /become/ them. J and I were just on an informal conversational basis and I was heavily[and would constantly mention this] inspired by sulacoyote's work, who. was also who inspired J. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that it hurt seeing my hard work picked apart like that and knowing that it not only hurt myself, but someone else, who otherwise, just wanted to see any drama related to her, end.
and removing it felt as though a great weight was dropped off my shoulders. I can look back at my older stuff and not so much feel ashamed, but rather sad that all my hard work ended up inadvertently hurting someone at the hands of someone else, who was entirely bitter[and had creepily stalked my galleries for over a year]. it's up now, in a separate gallery, but only because I just. I felt bad everytime someone would note or e-mail me asking for a copy of an image because they didn't manage to save it.
I mean. ultimately, sometimes I feel utterly trapped between a rock and a hard place; I have urges to clear everything out just so I can try starting on a clean slate as far as the visual gallery is concerned, but I also don't want to simply take everything away from the people who have helped me not only improve as an artist, but as a person. which. was why I assumed just giving everyone a simple heads up regarding the gallery sweep was a better idea than going into great detail about everything.
but. my good friend phantasmagora was right in her advice to take some time away and focus on other things in my life. and. I honestly can't thank her enough for being such a loyal and honest friend[who you all should watch for her amazing art skills] to me, and for being someone who honestly understands everything that frustrates me about participating and posting art online[and vice versa]. I can't really say that I'm "back", but. I'm feeling better, and I'll start getting to work on everything. the internet is still just too busy and hectic of a place for my exhausted brain.
ultimately, I can't, and never could deny the similarities in the themes J and I used, but. it really was just two people having similar interests in the same themes, games, movies, and even right down to artistic inspirations. but I suppose being accused of trying to be another artist, right down to[and I wish I was kidding] having long exposure photos of yourself raving with orange and blue glowsticks, just takes things a little too far- to the point where I was probably a lot more unnerved that someone followed my gallery[I was on dA at the time, and I had a feature that showed you who would visit your profile and this person was listed on a daily basis] for an obtuse period of time, just so they could try to slam my public image, makes it hard to feel the same way you did about your art.
and I think the overall commonality of the themes is one of the things that annoyed me the most- I'd been perfectly honest and upfront about my inspirations; Sulaco, VivaDaWolf, Fallout, Waterworld, The Postman, the industrial club scene, "phat" pants found on eBay... no one owns these things, so why should anyone go out of their way and use up their time to try to make someone feel utterly terrible about drawing such themes? it just. MIND BOGGLED.
and hooly ramble. xD
nowadays, if I'm running low on vitamin C, I'll just brew up my own mug of pine needle tea and sweeten it with honey. <3
The reason I was so curious is because I just had a hospital stay for spontaneous lung collapse and, after doing much research into what that might portend for the rest of my life (a very grim outlook, really), one person has been doing research on the relationship between spontaneous collapse and their vitamin C intake. The result seems to be that, if they are very high on C, the likelihood of it happening to them again is considerably less.
Also, I think it just sounds really cool. lol
it also prevents scurvy. and no one wants SCURVY.
I've also heard something similar about orchid tea being absolutely amazing for you, but I'm not really sure about it. I found about thirty different recipes on only four or five websites, all of them to make the exact same cup of tea. lol
I stumbled upon Jennadelle's gallery on Deviantart when another artist named Aido Rakaen linked her gallery, back in, like, 2001 or something, haha. And now half the people I know have found her art in some shape or way.
I never liked the accusations of 'style' theft that people like to accuse artists of. "Oh, hey, you like this subject matter drawn this way? Welp, you can't have, you have to go and develop your own 'style' and by that I mean making something nobody else came up with because only true artists can spring creativity from an absolute void."
being a 15 year old kid and being attacked by her fans all the time just for looking up to her and drawing influence from her style while I learned how to find my own style was really not cool at all
I'm glad I managed to avoid most of the J drama- as an 'outsider', it looked pretty rough and ruthless when her fans involved themselves.
Host an FTP. It will house remote backups of the little bits of yourself you post to the world. Not to mention, you can use the external link to provide anyone who asks for a copy of a certain piece you have done. They'll instantly have access to all your shared work. Or, even a link-only album in Picasa. Start fresh just as you mentioned you wanted to without cutting the rope completely.
Best wishes.
Speaking as one, and for those friends of mine that are, I fully support this statement.
Also its good to hear things are looking up for you. :] Sometimes a big break is just what's needed.
ALSO Also I vaguely understand about how your older work being compared/picked apart/etc and I guess it's a good thing that sort of shit's stopped for good???
why am i leaving this comment since im probably a complete stranger to you (other than you wtching me for some reason)
-an hour passes-
Super-important Boss "Hmm, I need someone else in Urban Planning, hire that Geary girl, she seems to do good work plus her clipboard has an awesome doodle on it."
Such are the fickelties of management =P
..in other news, I am copyrighting dreadlocks. Please remove all dreadlock images from your gallery forthwith.