Tonight, I am as you are...I am dread and storm and I am hope and light.

I am between the fear that what I wish will now never be, due to my own body waging a war against my will.

I am between happiness that I am alive, that I was able to be found, so close to no longer being at all.

I am between fear of the rest of my life, plagued with pain and uncertainty.

I am between happiness of the knowledge of what has happened, and that it might not ever again befall me.

I am dread and storm.

I am hope and light.