death is not something i like to deal with, and i dont handle it. which makes what happened to me this after really hard for me both in haert and soul. I had to make the toughest decision of my life today and my mind says it was the right thing to do but my heart says other wise. I had to have my baby girl, my beloved dog Jedi put to sleep this afternoon. I can not begin to discribe how i feel everthing has be but a blur to me from the time i got the call from the vet's to the time i got there and had to make that dreadful decision, to bringing her home to my parents house and laying her to rest in a spot that over looks the yard she always loved to be in. I know there is a lot im not saying, details that are left out, but right the pain is too deep, the wound to fresh to my heart for me to talk about the whole of the matter.
I know she is in a better place, Where she does not have to deal with the illnesses she has delt with since she was a puppy. but truth be told i want her here with me, i know it sounds and is a very selfish train off thought, but i just want my baby girl back. My heart breaks more and more at every thought and memory of her......