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10th year coping, in my error I see how we move on.
14 years ago
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As of now its 49 minutes past the 10th anniversary of 9/11. While I'm just as patriotic and affected by this event as everyone else this year I kinda felt pretty low.
Friday september 10th started off great. I had first period class and then break. during break a bunch of friends and I started a spontaneous rave party in the instrument room. its this huge empty room thats pitch black with the lights off. My school just got everyone ipads so we all downloaded RAVE lite which simulates strobes and glow effects. we had about 6 ipads going and then another playing rave music through some speakers.
Not gonna lie it was probably the best time I've had in my life in awhile. Unfortunately we kinda missed the beginning and most of assembly. That assembly happened to be a 9/11 remembrance thing. Halfway through our rave the academic dean opens the door to the room. Busted. He told us to get to assembly.
Nothing makes you feel worse then realizing that while all the rest of the students are at assembly for something like this you are dancing and acting foolish. I'm not even sure what word to use for that feeling. Its somewhere between shame, regret, failure and horror. I think mostly shame and regret. Anywho so I spent that day thinking about that. I never dwell on things. what happened happened. Were slowly getting back on our feet and America will remain strong.
Just that morning was shitty in that respect that way. Personally If I died, I would not want my country or my friends to mourn me. Some mourn to cope, its what humans do. I usually mourn in my stoney silence I get when someone close dies, but I cope with music. I regret that I was not mourning with the rest of society at that moment. I was not in the bleachers with my head down in silence. 9/11 is a tragic part of history but we must move forward. So heres my letter of admittance to error, but heres also to moving on.
Friday september 10th started off great. I had first period class and then break. during break a bunch of friends and I started a spontaneous rave party in the instrument room. its this huge empty room thats pitch black with the lights off. My school just got everyone ipads so we all downloaded RAVE lite which simulates strobes and glow effects. we had about 6 ipads going and then another playing rave music through some speakers.
Not gonna lie it was probably the best time I've had in my life in awhile. Unfortunately we kinda missed the beginning and most of assembly. That assembly happened to be a 9/11 remembrance thing. Halfway through our rave the academic dean opens the door to the room. Busted. He told us to get to assembly.
Nothing makes you feel worse then realizing that while all the rest of the students are at assembly for something like this you are dancing and acting foolish. I'm not even sure what word to use for that feeling. Its somewhere between shame, regret, failure and horror. I think mostly shame and regret. Anywho so I spent that day thinking about that. I never dwell on things. what happened happened. Were slowly getting back on our feet and America will remain strong.
Just that morning was shitty in that respect that way. Personally If I died, I would not want my country or my friends to mourn me. Some mourn to cope, its what humans do. I usually mourn in my stoney silence I get when someone close dies, but I cope with music. I regret that I was not mourning with the rest of society at that moment. I was not in the bleachers with my head down in silence. 9/11 is a tragic part of history but we must move forward. So heres my letter of admittance to error, but heres also to moving on.
