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14 years ago
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A little over a week or two ago my folks went off to watch my brother play band at his school's football game, leaving me home alone. I'd been having a poor day because the night before I'd been unable to sleep, and then I'd had a... rough day IMing. Or rather, trying to find people to IM with. When I finally met someone [I love their 'sona but won't mention a name] I was overjoyed...
And then five minutes later my mom gets home and I have to log off in a hurry.
The point is, I was in a pretty miserable mood, until about 10 o'clock, when
danath announced she'd be doing a free hook-up story stream. I was overjoyed [again]; I've never been able to attend one of her streams [precisely because my parents not letting me use the computer when they're home] and here I was about to win a slot!
Not only was my name picked first, but I was to be paired with
, an OC whom I've been crushing on for the longest time. I'm sure they could hear my squeeing over in South Carolina.
You know where this is going, don't you?
My folks arrived home again JUST as Danath picked my name, and the first thing they did was to tell me to get off the computer.
I can't stand it. I can't get over it. I'm so bitter I can't get a paragraph into danath's stories without becoming too angry/disgusted to continue. And watching her continue to release story streams is like rubbing salt in the wound. I'm 100% sure I will never get to watch in one of those streams, let alone get to participate.
I am not begging for a free story, Danath. That would be even more pathetic than the way my parents push me around. I don't mean to whine, I am not asking or demanding anything.
I just need to rant. And maybe I need to explain why I haven't been on YIM to my friends. I just don't feel up to it.
North Carolina's going to vote in May to amend the state constitution to ban same-sex marriage. The Democrats refused to fight the legislative vote because doing so might have meant the vote would take place in November instead... and the religious voters summoned to pass the ban would bolster Republican ranks, and possibly create losses for the Democrats.
*vomits violently*
And my drawings? I don't know if I can upload them. Last Thursday and Friday my dad removed the cord that connects the machine to the computer so I won't print anything. I don't know where he's put it, or if he'll return it.
...
Sorry, guys. I just have a lot of shit right now that's too much for me to deal with. *sigh* Here's to hoping for a miracle...
EDIT: Oh, and looks like Faye was my 150th submission. Woo, I don't even have 13,000 page views, woo~ Woo, my Sofurry account has over 50,000 woo, I feel underappreciated, angry that I can't do anything but sketches, furious I can't commission anyone, despairing because I have a suspicious feeling that if I did those would get more views than my own stuff
woohoo
And then five minutes later my mom gets home and I have to log off in a hurry.
The point is, I was in a pretty miserable mood, until about 10 o'clock, when
danath announced she'd be doing a free hook-up story stream. I was overjoyed [again]; I've never been able to attend one of her streams [precisely because my parents not letting me use the computer when they're home] and here I was about to win a slot!Not only was my name picked first, but I was to be paired with
, an OC whom I've been crushing on for the longest time. I'm sure they could hear my squeeing over in South Carolina.You know where this is going, don't you?
My folks arrived home again JUST as Danath picked my name, and the first thing they did was to tell me to get off the computer.
I can't stand it. I can't get over it. I'm so bitter I can't get a paragraph into
danath's stories without becoming too angry/disgusted to continue. And watching her continue to release story streams is like rubbing salt in the wound. I'm 100% sure I will never get to watch in one of those streams, let alone get to participate.I am not begging for a free story, Danath. That would be even more pathetic than the way my parents push me around. I don't mean to whine, I am not asking or demanding anything.
I just need to rant. And maybe I need to explain why I haven't been on YIM to my friends. I just don't feel up to it.
North Carolina's going to vote in May to amend the state constitution to ban same-sex marriage. The Democrats refused to fight the legislative vote because doing so might have meant the vote would take place in November instead... and the religious voters summoned to pass the ban would bolster Republican ranks, and possibly create losses for the Democrats.
*vomits violently*
And my drawings? I don't know if I can upload them. Last Thursday and Friday my dad removed the cord that connects the machine to the computer so I won't print anything. I don't know where he's put it, or if he'll return it.
...
Sorry, guys. I just have a lot of shit right now that's too much for me to deal with. *sigh* Here's to hoping for a miracle...
EDIT: Oh, and looks like Faye was my 150th submission. Woo, I don't even have 13,000 page views, woo~ Woo, my Sofurry account has over 50,000 woo, I feel underappreciated, angry that I can't do anything but sketches, furious I can't commission anyone, despairing because I have a suspicious feeling that if I did those would get more views than my own stuff
woohoo
Most modern ones use a standard USB A/B cabole, which you can get pretty cheap and easily, even WalMart has them.
Older ones probably use a parallel port cable, which is still something you can probably find if you check around. Don't know if WalMart would have those, but Best Buy might, and I'd think Radio Shack would.
Not trying to incite any problems or anything, but that's what I'd do and in fact what I did. (I got myself my own PC actually, never got any complaint again, but I knew if they threatened pulling the cord I'd just offer to pay the electricity bill if it bothered them that much, just to deliver my own jabs. :P)
More importantly, we can IM and RP if you want! I'd like to get to know you too, and I'm finally starting to use YIM again.
but i will tell you this. you are not un-appreciated. I love your art, and love talkin with you. Your a great person who deserves more than what life has given you.
besides- i cant complain too much, from here. (okay granted i'm not into "porn" in general, but still:) you draw waaay better then me. sketch, mona lisa. to me, it's all the same (LOL no art taste, i guess :'( )
all i can truly tell is your artwork isn't half bad. everybody has their "style" my friend down here, Don, is the straightest black guy i know (or know of) and the only thing he's capable of is "cartoony"/"flirty" type doodles. does them damned well, yet i can tell he's kinda "off" about the fact that's all he can do. (after all, we pick on him a bit about his art, not in a bad way, just... it's "teen-girl for the adult straight southern black guy", but we make sure we let him know we're just pick'en since it's expert.)
maybe you're like him? you're "thing" is sketching. i'm not sure the exact kind... not enough knowledge- not "cartoony" like Don, though. maybe you should instead, excel at it? make it your own? i've noticed the best artist i hear are not necessarily "good" at /art/ in a general sense... but /best/ at their particular "style". (i know two big-names, and a small name off the top of my head hat fits :) they are like SOOO "one type only"! yet some of the best around, and for MANY a year :) )
*hugs for the computer* sorry you're 'rents are doing that to the computer. *still feels at fault for that.*