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14 years ago
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Phases come and phases go, and sometimes I worry that my interest i the fandom is nothing more than a phase.
At one point in time I was always online, ready to do art and ready to travel to see my fellow, fun loving, fuzzy butts.
But within the last year or two it seems as though the fandom has been slipping out of my hands.
I haven't been involved near as much as I used to.
I've started to lose contact with people who, under normal circumstances, were never more than a phone call or text or im away.
I've been busy with life.
I've got art shows to do,
I have residencies to prepare for.
I have a woman in my life to provide for.
I also tend to look at the younger generation of furries and be shocked. I lucked out. I was brought into the fandom by an older furry and as a result, really only hung out with the older furries (I'm talking there is at least a ten year difference between me and these people, if not fifteen.). So, it causes me to be unable to relate with some of the people of my own age group when weird things go on. While I say "whatever" and move on, I've watched a few people build up so much stress and pressure, they create their own explosion of chaos, when it wasn't necessary.
Recently, it seems there is always some sort of drama or disastrous situation going on (and I am aware i have had my share). But over foolish things, like banners? I'm still unclear as to why there is drama over an MLP themed banner.
I'm not writing this because I'm angry at anyone or I think FA and everyone in it needs to change. I'm writing this because I wanted something to look back and reflect upon later.
I'm hitting that age where a lot of things are changing faster than I realized.
Hell, next thing I know I could be a dad or be over in Berlin doing photography. I may have a contract, or I may be in a nuthouse.
A big thing happened this week and has seemed to rekindle a mentality I once had that I've desperately been needing. The mentality of surviving, thriving, and outlasting everyone else.
I have a life to live, and now I have the chance to, I'm not fucking it up this time.
At one point in time I was always online, ready to do art and ready to travel to see my fellow, fun loving, fuzzy butts.
But within the last year or two it seems as though the fandom has been slipping out of my hands.
I haven't been involved near as much as I used to.
I've started to lose contact with people who, under normal circumstances, were never more than a phone call or text or im away.
I've been busy with life.
I've got art shows to do,
I have residencies to prepare for.
I have a woman in my life to provide for.
I also tend to look at the younger generation of furries and be shocked. I lucked out. I was brought into the fandom by an older furry and as a result, really only hung out with the older furries (I'm talking there is at least a ten year difference between me and these people, if not fifteen.). So, it causes me to be unable to relate with some of the people of my own age group when weird things go on. While I say "whatever" and move on, I've watched a few people build up so much stress and pressure, they create their own explosion of chaos, when it wasn't necessary.
Recently, it seems there is always some sort of drama or disastrous situation going on (and I am aware i have had my share). But over foolish things, like banners? I'm still unclear as to why there is drama over an MLP themed banner.
I'm not writing this because I'm angry at anyone or I think FA and everyone in it needs to change. I'm writing this because I wanted something to look back and reflect upon later.
I'm hitting that age where a lot of things are changing faster than I realized.
Hell, next thing I know I could be a dad or be over in Berlin doing photography. I may have a contract, or I may be in a nuthouse.
A big thing happened this week and has seemed to rekindle a mentality I once had that I've desperately been needing. The mentality of surviving, thriving, and outlasting everyone else.
I have a life to live, and now I have the chance to, I'm not fucking it up this time.
If not for new artwork on FA keeping me in touch with people, I don't know where I'd be in relation to the fandom.
I just don't seem to have the time and motivation to chat or RP or work on vore clips like I used to. There's simply so much else going on in life, that while my love for these things has never faded, it just seems harder and harder to justify spending the time on them.
So, don't feel as if it's just you. While I do always hope to see you doing more artwork and having fun in the fandom, I understand the reality of the situation, where it just takes a back seat to other things right now. Hopefully, that will change and you'll find yourself in the full swing of things online again, but don't try to force it to happen. Focus on whatever is most important to you at the moment.