just that... I'm extremely depressed

For the past 4 weeks I've been holding on, but today I broke. I put all my effort on finding the memories I need for my Desktop PC, but there is nowhere where to buy them, and if there is, I have to wait at least 20 days... FUCK THAT!

I don't know what to do know, I don't have anyone to help me and now I ask myself: what's the use on knowing a lot on computers when I can't even fix mine? I just need the memories (I hope) but I can't get them anywhere...

I feel really down, so down, I can't even move a finger without getting tired. Not because I'm tired, it's because of that, that fucking sensation you have when you feel you are useless...

I hope to find anything to make myself happy again...