Look, guys, I'm at my limit here. The past what... Six days? I've been sick. It's been wearing on me. Alright? This is aimed mostly at one person who's probably not gonna read this, but this should clear up things for others.

I've been dealing with a lot lately, alright? A couple months ago, I mentioned my financial situation. I needed $1700 so I can cover college long enough to NOT be completely and entirely screwed. I've never made much more than $100 towards this goal, and it seems like whenever I get beyond $120 saved, something new comes along and I'm forced to spend some. Usually for food. But who knows how long it'll be before bills start taking?

Look. The college I go to is utter shit. I don't mean to insult anyone and I'm sorry if I do, but for gods sake I swear it's for the mentally challenged. The classes are very slow-paced, and the ones I'm supposed to take force me to work every bit as slow. If not SLOWER. There's no option for me to take the classes as PACE (which is a thing some classes do, it means I do the work on my own time at my own pace), and there's no test-out option for the courses I need but already know everything for. Which, to be honest with you, is pretty much ALL of them. When it's forcing me to be slow like this, I simply can't function. I just can't work like that. I can work at a slow pace, yes. But I have a limit. I can only go so slow before my mind just shuts down. Because of this, my academics got to the point where they removed my financial aid. This is why I needed the money, so I can get back just long enough to get things to the point where I can at least go somewhere else.

Just to be clear: Classes start on 27 September. This means I have five more days to get SOMETHING worked out. I'll also remind you all that not making things work stands a VERY good chance of me not having a place to live anymore. Got me? It's extremely stressful. My attention has bee pretty much there for a while. And I'll say it again, I've been sick with something the greater part of a week now. Dunno if it's been a cold or the flue or something else, all I know is it's knocked me on my ass more than a few times. My insomnia's worsened now where I'm easily up for a few days, and when I'm not, I've passed out either from sheer exhaustion or some other reason and I'm out for hours. I often don't get the chance to shut my laptop off before I pass out, it just happens at random. Given everything above, I want people to stop getting pissed when I DON'T RESPOND TO IM AND TEXTS. Seriously guys, I've got enough on my plate here and I'm trying my best. But it's only so much.

So yeah. I'm pushing my limits, hoping I can get well for a change and trying to make a miracle happen so I can keep going. I'm trying to get commissions done, both so I can get money and so my commissioners don't have to keep waiting. No matter how many commissions I have however, until I can make ends meet, I will ALWAYS be open to take more. My full commission info is on my FA page, in the artist profile. Please guys, I need your help. I don't want to get kicked out on the streets.

So yeah... I think that's about all I have to say. Again, most of you are fine, this is just an update I want you all to keep in mind. I'm sick, I'm stressed, I'm tired as all hell and I'm still trying to keep things going. For some of you, I hope this'll keep you off my tail for a little bit so I can focus a little more in getting better instead of listening to complaints and whatever else (no offense if it's validated, I understand those cases.)

I think I'm gonna end the rant here, I'm too tired to keep going and I think I've run out of stuff to rant about anyway. I'll probably pass out before long for more sleep. But while I'm here, I'll let you all know that I'll be livestreaming some commission work tomorrow (22 September) assuming I'm physically able. As my commission work often is, it'll be NSFW in content. So mind the kids.