im stressed. very much so im questioning everything im doing. im wondering if my relationship with my girlfriend is what i want. am i really in love with her. in my current mood set i cant really feel much of anything but depression and annoyance and frustration. im wondering what would happen if we broke up. which will be harder on her as she will be left with nothing. im serious she already lost everything when she moved in with me. now if she has to move out she will have nothing. but im wondering is it sumtint hat must be done if i am to be happy again? which was before we hooked up. i feel like she's suffocating me. i feel like my needs arnt being met. sexually or emotionally. we found a couple of apartments that are rather nice. but im wondering is a move really what is needed? yes i really dont wanna keep this cold draftly place. but i cant afford to live on my own. come to think of it budget is nonexistent. i barely get enough for bills and rent. i have no savings cause i cannot afford any. i cant have vacations for the same reason. i cant go anywhere cause i dont have anywhere to go, no means to get there, and no funds to go with. yeah. im tired.stressed. and just very in need of some rest. sleep isnt what i need. i sleep just fine. i just dont seam to wake up rested. x,x