I recently discovered that my grandfather, who I've known for my entire life, might not make it to see 2012. He's in the hospital again and my whole family is falling apart due to this. My mother calls me every hour crying. My father's been distant ever since we found out. I'm starting to think that my life is going to be nothing but one step towards happiness and two steps towards depression. I really have thought of just leaving all of this behind so I can forget my hardships, but due to my mental state I do not wish to. I really am starting to find out why people commit suicide everyday, life's a bitch, and you have to deal with it everyday, day in and day out, until WHAM you drop dead... and yet... I constantly ask myself, "Why am I taking this, I'm still in school, I don't need this, so why am I taking all of this bullshit?" I've thought about having it all ended... by gun... or knife.... or rope... but I think better of it every time... Please help me... ______D_X