Hmm ...
14 years ago
And so says Reacter the Red Fox:
Oh God ... it's happening again. Once again, I've not changed near enough, gotten good enough, whatever the FUCK is wrong with me. I'm just never fucking GOOD enough. And once again, it seems I'm too late. I feel like my life is stuck in Neutral. Maybe continuing on with the car metaphors, I should just stick my head into the engine fan and be done with this god dammed hell hole.
Once again, I think maybe I have overreacted ... I'm sorry ... Just paranoid, and nutso, me.
Once again, I think maybe I have overreacted ... I'm sorry ... Just paranoid, and nutso, me.
Numbah two: do not get yourself down! Think about it, if you hadn't made even the slightest impact on anyone, why would I be talking to you right now? People care. They may not show it but they do. But this may be entirely misguided right now, but there is one point I'm trying to get across: You are good enough. Trust me on this, you are good enough. I'm sorry if I overstep my bounds, but really, if you want to talk, argue, rant, whatever, you can at least have the knowledge that someone is listening, and is right here right now. Do with it as you will. I care.
Also ... You are very right. It's just that deep down in the night, when it seems that everyone is gone, and you're waiting for one person who you are doing your best for, but not quite enough, you forget some of your mentality, sanity, whatever. By the way, thank you very much ... That's very kind of you, and I would most definitely like to chat with you some, it's been a LONG time!
So don't go insane. Use the insanity to come up with really gonzo stuff. And you are right, I hardly ever come out of my cave to talk even online.. Lol..