i know not many read this... but need to vent... hate it when i say something without thinking. getting someone worked up to expect one thing, then jumping topics and letting them down. i don't intend that... i hate upsetting people. and then unfortunately i got into panic mode and possibly make it worse...

now have left someone feeling rather useless and cast aside... and.. have felt that myself before... i don't like feeling that... and don't want them feeling that. just not sure how to repair things. we just met even and my second impression went terribly, although i think went a bit to overboard with my first as well.

its scary trying to meet new people... one slip up and can be all over before even get to know each other, without getting a chance to see the rest of the persons quality's.