Let me first say, I'm not asking for anyone to message me. Nor am I asking for pity, attention, or anything. In fact, don't even comment below. I'm forcing myself to post this against my better judgment.

Lately I've been unusually withdrawn and introverted. Even for me.

I want to be the talkative outgoing one that people like to approach. While that would mean a lot to me, I just feel that it's not worth it to the other person. The few times that I do scrounge up the courage to attempt to start a conversation, it always tapers off to nothing within a few minutes. Now, of course I've had some great interactions with my friends in the past. But it just seems that those are few and far between.

It's not because I'm lazy. It's because I'm out of touch and can't relate with very many people. We can talk about your day and your activities but I have nothing to say on my end to compliment that. So it becomes a one-sided conversation and then dies.

My general rule of thumb now then is that I don't start conversations. It just seems to work better that way. I'll be on messenger but I'm also going to be pretty much silent and sitting in the corner. I've embarrassed myself enough. I've wasted enough of other people's time.