Well I had a horrible night last night. I'm pretty sure I just lost a friend (if not more than a friend) last night. I don't want to go into details. Everything seemed fine last night as I'm going to bed then suddenly it turned to a forced conversation on the phone, as my phone is dieing as well. In the end, I didn't get to say what I wanted to say, only a part of it. I am pretty sure I lost that friend now, and really just made a few years of my life go to waste.

But I suppose on the good side of things... I am done with my lease and moved back home. So that is an extra chunk of money I get to have now. Finally got the car loan in my name, which also made for lower payments. And my sprites (pixel art) is being put into a mod for the game TerrariaOnline.

But out of it all, the good can't out weigh the bad in my mind. Even when I want to say its over, get over it (to myself)... my body isn't accepting it, I've been having terrible trembles and shaking since it. Not the "I'm cold" kind, the "I just got into a car accident and am in shock" kinda trembling, only a lot worse.

I suppose the worst part is, it seems almost none of my friends are around anymore (online or in person), so I can't even vent to them or just get some support/distractions.