I think I am better off not being in any relationships at all. Just too hard for me being on the road constantly, and not fair to others. I need to move back to Illinois, find a place to farm, and drive truck on the side, and just be alone and happy, because I am not now happy. You have no idea how hard it's been watching Spectra degrade snce her accident, and I can't deal with it or her anymore. Loosing my sanity.

And why is it anytime I eat real food, my eyes water like crazy and my nose runs like a faucet? Very very aggravating.