We all need to rant a little it helps the stress and offers an opportunity to hear input that could help :). I'd say why not ask at universal first see if they will give you more shifts if you have more free time before quitting your other job if they can't try to hold out a little longer or look for another job at a restaurant that wont work you so hard. I know a lot of them in the kitchen are maddening I've work at enough my self, none of the high class ones you'd need schooling for but enough to know being a cook is one busy job.

"Money is not worth killing yourself over"
"I hate that I'm too stubborn to give up when I know I should"
You said it, you know it.

You just have to analyze the pros and cons of quitting..… 5 months of misery ain't worth it.

What I'm about to say comes from my experiences working 2 years full-time as a kitchen grillbitch.

If work is having such a negative effect on you that it's causing you physical pain (or pain of any kind for that matter, such as emotional or psychological) and making it harder and harder to do your job efficiently? No question about it, you need to get out of there. I had a pinched nerve in my spine when I got hired at my job, six months in and an accident in the walk-in freezer made it worse. I didn't say a word about it to anyone, kept going, by the one-year mark my back was officially declared permanently damaged, and I wasn't supposed to be doing the work I was doing anymore. Instead I kept going at it, because I was the only one at my job who was willing to carry around the cases of meat and ice and all that... After a while it not only brought constant physical pain, but I started getting more and more stressed out, I was constantly depressed, constantly sick, and got to the point where I ended up having to get a bunch of tests done at the hospital to check for ulcers and IBS. All stress-related. It sucked, and at that point I threw in the towel and handed my managers my two weeks notice.

There is not a single job out there worth killing yourself over-- Not for five months, not even for one month. Would you rather quit and hope you get more ours at a job you'll be more capable and comfortable doing, or would you rather keep doing this and put yourself through all of this stress, pain and misery and risk doing permanent damage to your back or leg, which will make finding a new job you could do that much more difficult?

Don't put yourself through this. You're a better person than to have to put up with this amount of stress, and I know you'll find something way better in the long run. Don't ever let your job get in the way of your health and well-being.

Good luck with it, in any case.

I have to say, this was about the most amazing comment I'd ever received.

Thank you.

That's about what happened to me though. I went into the culinary shit with a pinched nerve. Now, 4 years later, my three lower vertebrae are slipping, my disks are damaged. I have to look into getting them replaced. I originally stopped doing culinary almost a year ago because it was just hurting my body too much. And I should have just stayed away from it all together honestly.

But thank you. Seriously. You're comment pretty much sums up my thoughts and what I know deep down. I guess I just needed someone to tell me what I knew, if that makes sense xD;

Im probably going to look into trying to transfer earlier. If not, my two week notice will be turned in.

No job is worth killing yourself over, for any reason. How can you enjoy the money you've earned or be able to take pride in what you've accomplished if you're dead? There's no question, you should turn in your two week notice.

And for the part about calling yourself a failure and actually believing it, do not even go there. I haven't known you for that long, but I know for a fact that you're much better than that. There are people out there that don't give a damn about anyone, including themselves, and refuse to do anything about it. You do care about a lot of people, Crush included, and you do make an effort to show it, whether it be listening to a friend, or working two jobs to support yourself and your man. You put yourself through insurmountable physical exhaustion and mental strain to contribute something to the world and take care of not only yourself, but your lover too, and that makes you FAR from a failure in this world.

What you need to do every day to battle these feelings is simple. Look at yourself in the mirror, ask yourself what it is that you do, and why you do it. You'll realize that there is purpose in what you do, that you are working for something good, something that matters to you, and that you are contributing something to the world, no matter how big or small. That makes you a success in my book, not a failure, and I think anyone else would agree with me.

You should turn in your resignation and save yourself the pain and possible medical complications that might come from overworking, but don't ever think, even for a second, that you're a failure simply because the work load proves too much for you. You're already doing far more than the average person in this world would even care to do, and you're doing it for good reasons, and suffering through incredible hardships to do it to boot. You're NOT a failure, you're a winner.

I know I'm hardly ever around anymore because of my hectic school schedule, but you still have my phone number (I hope). You can call or text me anytime.

I love you Erin. Don't ever kick yourself like that again.