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i decided about my life and am returning here. read
18 years ago
promises and wishes should not be broken since it them that allow us to dream of better tormorrow and see the light of hope once more. so never make a promise to anyone you can't keep, or wish for something impossiable it will only hurt to no end if you do, trust me on this.
okay here is my choice, college is the most difficult thing i have ever done in my life it proves to be the worst choice i ever made and doing more bad than good. also i bearly passed the first quarter and the second quarter is going so horriablely. suffering is not cup of tea to do.
i feel bad about this but i will quit college for good if i fail the second semseter, i don't give fuck, am sick of suffering and trying something i clearly do not understand. am not one to fight a pointless battle. my mind is up made after i spoke to shad0w0lf about this and spoke to my mother for hours about it.
also i handled my personal business with shad0w0lf that upset me, and learned the truth and i could not be more shocked that am really cared for even when i don't know about it. so in other words i love him more his deicataion to me all his work. so it shames to quit when he working so hard. but i know this right in my heart this choice.
i hear there is job near me that pays $15 ahour and it just putting pototae chips and snack food in boxes, sounds easy to me for such good pay, and if i work for 5 days at hours a day for week that about 600 bucks and after taxes maybe 530 or so. i suck at math and i had to pay somebody in high school to do my work in it to pass, because am failer and can't do something without somebody help.
so all and all whats bothering me my future and if i can have one, since before i meet shad0w0lf, i always saw my future and it was me stabing myself in the heart with my sword crying in the forest. but after all this money troubles i don't know. It all about money that bothers me since a future can only be bulit with money and sadly i have basicly very little to work with.
currently have $2,495 in the bank towards my furture with
shad0w0lf but i need more than that and i hoping my college would give me nice job to make that amount more, but i guess not....................................... so i have take a new path in life to support us. sadly my father was right......
i feel bad about this but i will quit college for good if i fail the second semseter, i don't give fuck, am sick of suffering and trying something i clearly do not understand. am not one to fight a pointless battle. my mind is up made after i spoke to shad0w0lf about this and spoke to my mother for hours about it.
also i handled my personal business with shad0w0lf that upset me, and learned the truth and i could not be more shocked that am really cared for even when i don't know about it. so in other words i love him more his deicataion to me all his work. so it shames to quit when he working so hard. but i know this right in my heart this choice.
i hear there is job near me that pays $15 ahour and it just putting pototae chips and snack food in boxes, sounds easy to me for such good pay, and if i work for 5 days at hours a day for week that about 600 bucks and after taxes maybe 530 or so. i suck at math and i had to pay somebody in high school to do my work in it to pass, because am failer and can't do something without somebody help.
so all and all whats bothering me my future and if i can have one, since before i meet shad0w0lf, i always saw my future and it was me stabing myself in the heart with my sword crying in the forest. but after all this money troubles i don't know. It all about money that bothers me since a future can only be bulit with money and sadly i have basicly very little to work with.
currently have $2,495 in the bank towards my furture with
shad0w0lf but i need more than that and i hoping my college would give me nice job to make that amount more, but i guess not....................................... so i have take a new path in life to support us. sadly my father was right......
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Man, REAL sorry 'bout how college is goin' for you. I'm gonna be honest, I've never really known how it feels to be challenged in such matters, but I will always be sympathetic. It can suck because it really does feel as if the educational system is tryin' to set you up to fail.
Well hopefully everything works out for you
And don't worry, just because something doesn't work out the first time, doesn't mean it will work out at all
I know it's hard, life sucks and it's not all rainbows and roses, the grass isn't greener on the other side, but as my dear friend said to me, "Just hold on and we'll be here when it's over."
There's a variation of this for you. To give up would be to never accomplish your dream, which thereby renders everything you've previously done pointless. You just gotta hold on, and when life throws you off a cliff just grab on and don't let go.
You won't have to live this journey by yourself, there will be others to help you along the way. Right now it seems you're slipping and about to let go of life's edge completely, and when that happens just know you'll always have friends who will take your hand and pull you up, as I hope to do.
This is the motivation that has gotten me through the hard times, and I thank my dear friend kindly for the inspiration. Every time I'm feeling down and just want to let go, I think of his words and that's the only thing that keeps me moving.
If you can't do it for yourself, do it it in the acknowledgment of being able to wrap your arms around your beloved shad0w0lf one day. He's there waiting for you, as you are waiting for him.
Please, just hold on. *holds out my paw in an offer to help you climb back up from the 'cliff'*
We're here for you.