well tonight was the last night my girlfriend and I could PHYSICALLY be together. and i have to say, it was one of the best. Simply because it wasnt just her and i, but her uncle who is the coolest guy ever, and her grandmother who is the sweetest woman ive ever met. all of us just hung around. of course my gf and i had alone time for most of the day/night but dinner was amazing. played guitar for everyone made her grandma laugh alot (in one of the songs you can hear her cracking up to the lyrics.

our night was filled with cuddles laughs lovin.. makin lovin.. lul.. and just holding eachother. Living dead aired and we snuggled up and watched that together. was one of the best moments of my life actually. why? because ive never felt so calm happy and in love all at the same time. like nothing in the world mattered except this beautiful creature in my arms.

we exchanged gifts as like little "goodbyes" i guess. I gave her my favorite t-shirt with Lord Zedd from power rangers on it as well as a purple (her favorite color) stuffed bear. she got me arkham city. *dies inside*

during some of our conversations i mentioned how ill be in las vegas a lot as my dad has a hotel room there (yeah my dad owns a hotel room... hes kind of a big mcgaff in Vegas.) and how itd only be.. get this.. 2 hours away from her house in LA.

I HAVE TO DRIVE 2 HOURS FROM MY HOUSE TO HERS IN OUR STATE lolol so its like OH HO HOOOOO?!??! 2 hours apart?? we can do that!!

so she promised to meet me there in november. from teh 19-22 we will be together again. i know were "breaking up" or whatever but she said shell still love me and wants to skype/text/call ever day. so maybe its like a long distance relationship minus like bg/gf status.. idk i just.. love the fact that i can still love her and she can still love me and we dont ahve to feel awkward about it. thats real love i think.

so as we walked to my car tonight for me to drive off for the last time we hugged outside... under the moon and stars for what felt like forever. i couldnt let go neither could she. now words between us just hugging and embracing eachother for quite possibly the last time in a very very long while. the sky started crying... (rain) and then.. i started crying. ahaha big "goth" boy crying. yep. i do it for her. she got up on her tip toes and kissed me. cutest thing ever... since im quite a tall guy (6'2 or 3 i forget) she has to reach up to get me ahaha ugh.. that kiss was.. the best kiss.. the best *touches my lower lip* the best.

well.. i thought id be a train wreck here. but ive been crying happy tears. because im in love. and nothing will stop me<3 and i understand now that if you really love someone, something as easy as them moving away wont stop you. so yeah i mean im a little sad shes moving, but too many happy feelings to even notice that.

goodnight all<3