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STOP!! RIGHT NOW!!!PLEASE...
18 years ago
<COMPLETELY INSANE RANT>
I am sitting to my head in a bunch of work. I have to work six mornings a week. I am still sick, my dogs are completely insane right now, my back hurts and so does my right knee. Still. Every f***ing time I bend it it hurts and when I stretch it I have to wait several minutes before I can put weight on it and stand again. God.
Since I drew the "Into the abyss" and "Wrong Intentiones" pics I got at least four new commissions. To the 5 I still have to finish... I lost track already. Maybe there are more. I don't f***ing know. And I have to make two-four pics for a website. I get an own homepage in exchange but dammit, I have no time. And this other job. That will consume much time too. And I am way behind my plan for the distance learning. FOUR F***ING MONTH at least. I work at least five hours a day only on my distance learning stuff. And I fell into a hole of depression. I don't even have a bit time for myself. To watch tv or draw. For myself.
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A WEEKEND!!! *cries*
And I already have to finish about three trades. People still asking me for trades or requests. I HAVE NO F***ING TIME ANYMORE. I WILL NOT TAKE MORE TRADES. DON'T ASK!
I don't even have eough time to take a long hot shower. I AM SO F***ING FULL OF EVERYTHING. And I say the word f**k way too much.
I am so afraid right now that I won't make it. This whole thing I worked for. God, dammit
If there would be a person (other then me) responsible for all of this, I would beg on my knees to stop it. I am not in the condition to handle everything. I never was. But now I feel like everything is slipping away from me and I just want to drown myself in self-pity. -.-
To ask you all, people I trade with and commissioners, to be patient with me would be maybe too much, since many of you already waited so long. But please be patient. People always think I am better than I am really. I have trouble with drawing. It takes me sometimes a really long time. I cannot sit down and say "Well, now I draw a pic" and just draw something. Sometimes it only takes five minutes. But never when it SHOULD. Than I work weeks on it. Please bear with me.
</COMPLETELY INSANE RANT>
I am sitting to my head in a bunch of work. I have to work six mornings a week. I am still sick, my dogs are completely insane right now, my back hurts and so does my right knee. Still. Every f***ing time I bend it it hurts and when I stretch it I have to wait several minutes before I can put weight on it and stand again. God.
Since I drew the "Into the abyss" and "Wrong Intentiones" pics I got at least four new commissions. To the 5 I still have to finish... I lost track already. Maybe there are more. I don't f***ing know. And I have to make two-four pics for a website. I get an own homepage in exchange but dammit, I have no time. And this other job. That will consume much time too. And I am way behind my plan for the distance learning. FOUR F***ING MONTH at least. I work at least five hours a day only on my distance learning stuff. And I fell into a hole of depression. I don't even have a bit time for myself. To watch tv or draw. For myself.
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A WEEKEND!!! *cries*
And I already have to finish about three trades. People still asking me for trades or requests. I HAVE NO F***ING TIME ANYMORE. I WILL NOT TAKE MORE TRADES. DON'T ASK!
I don't even have eough time to take a long hot shower. I AM SO F***ING FULL OF EVERYTHING. And I say the word f**k way too much.
I am so afraid right now that I won't make it. This whole thing I worked for. God, dammit
If there would be a person (other then me) responsible for all of this, I would beg on my knees to stop it. I am not in the condition to handle everything. I never was. But now I feel like everything is slipping away from me and I just want to drown myself in self-pity. -.-
To ask you all, people I trade with and commissioners, to be patient with me would be maybe too much, since many of you already waited so long. But please be patient. People always think I am better than I am really. I have trouble with drawing. It takes me sometimes a really long time. I cannot sit down and say "Well, now I draw a pic" and just draw something. Sometimes it only takes five minutes. But never when it SHOULD. Than I work weeks on it. Please bear with me.
</COMPLETELY INSANE RANT>
Hope you feel better soon! *hugs*
The thing I've noticed is, commissioners and people who are taking trades are usually always okay with waiting, especially when things as important as yours are going on. If you really need to let off some of the weight for a while, just let everyone know that commissions and trades are going to have to be on hold for a while, that you'll still do them but you have important things to work out first. Everyone should take that okay.
The thing to remember is your real life always has to come first. If you aren't taking the commissions and trades because you absolutely have to, it might be a good idea to simply set them aside for a while and work on the other things that are in the way- your distance learning, the website thing, etc. Focus on what is really important first, and then once the pace gets a little more relaxed for you you could begin knocking off those commissions and trades.
People are usually fairly understanding and patient, so never be afraid to just say you can't for a while, if you have to.
Well, I don't know if that'll be any use... but no matter what you do, I really hope you can get it all sorted out. You sound like you could really use a break from the stress, I hope you get it soon =/ Best of luck, with everything.
I do hope your situation gets better soon, though. Not always fun to see someone having a hard time. =/