Holidays are almost here. Everything should be a whole lot more cheery but I'm nothing like that this morning. I kind of want to scream, kind of want to cry, mostly just want to escape really. General moodiness I guess. Just feeling really dissatisfied with my job, nothing really worth noting or taking pride in since it's all customer service and sales. I get yelled at on a daily basis for mistakes other people make and misinformation. Then after helping them calm down and correcting errors I have to sell them new stuff, which I don't care for or even want to do. Honestly I'm tired of sales, I just want to do something more fun, but work is work I guess.

I want to go to design school and paint/draw for a living, or even do something like marketing. I graduated back in August, but only with an Associate in Arts with a major in communications. I think I'd love to work in a bakery or something. I just know I want a career that caters to my creative interests. I'm tired of sales, it's boring and it's a constant uphill battle, nothing worth stressing over or even caring about to me. Maybe I'm worrying too much, but it feels like I'm life is on pause right now.

I need something to make it feel like I'm doing something with my life, I want something that'll make me feel free, in the meantime I'll just keep drawing I guess. I'll get my freedom from the art I do like I always have.