Music Meme thing. Mostly I just wanted to change this page, it's been way to long as usual.

If there was ever a song which described me it is this one, there are a lot I like but this one describes my life in a nutshell. I've always managed to 'walk the edge of a knife' in most things, balancing between the success that I seek and the failure that I fear... but I can never seem to make myself want to put in the extra work which would give me the success I need.

Ya ya I know that sounds pretty Emo, but this isn't a poor me journal, it's a metaphorical representation of my own analysis of the last 23 years of my life.

Disturbed - Mistress Lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ5Y9LOmx38

My mistress
I stand on the brink of your mind
Living inside a nightmare from which
I just cannot awaken
Stand on the edge of your life
Just give me another moment
From which I will never awaken

Stand on the brink of my own demise
Fallen again for another
Mistress of burden
To idolize
Hoping that one of them will decide
To let me in

To stand on the edge of the knife
Cutting through the nightmare from which
I just cannot awaken
Stand on the edge of the night
Living inside a moment
From which I will never awaken

Stand on the brink of my own demise
Fallen again for another
Mistress of burden
To idolize
Hoping that one of them will decide
To let me in

Look at what you've done to me
You've become my enemy
Poisoning the world for me
Take away my everything
Weakened as I am

Stand on the brink of my own demise
Fallen again for another
Mistress of burden
To idolize
Hoping that one of them will decide
To let me in