..I think I should post about my 1 year so far with  fritter. I think we need a little happiness after my last journal.

Anyway, as of last Sunday (October 30th) fritter and I have been together a year. I don't think there could have been anymore of a roller coaster for the first year of a relationship. Half of this year was spent in a lot of stress, a lot of pain and a lot of worry. It was spent during something that most relationships would end over.

Even in the beginning, a lot of people didn't believe in our relationship. They gave us six months, tops. They said we were only rebounds, people looking for a fuck, among other nasty things. Now, our relationship didn't start in the greatest of ways, I mean I was still married and ended up getting a divorce to be with my partner. Several months before, Fritter's three and a half relationship had ended. So, we didn't really hit it off in the best of ways.

Several months down the line, shit happened. I mean, shit REALLY HAPPENED. Our worlds and our relationship was shook to the very foundation, to its very core. For some reason people expected me to take the easy road, turn tail and leave him. It is an expectation I will never understand. I mean, the accusations were deplorable and things were extremely rough and complicated yet, I KNOW who my partner is. I love him with all my heart and soul. Why wouldn't I stand by him and see him through? It just baffled me that people would even think that. I guess you could chalk it up to people not believe our relationship was true in the first place. Yet...Here we are today. Over a year ago where this shit started, still strong as ever.

Will things be perfect from here on out? I can wish for puppies and rainbows (..we already have that, don't we?), but all relationships have hardships. Ups and downs, highs and lows. Getting our own place, moving in together, having kids and raising a family... All those things that stress and test a relationship. I do expect fights and disagreements. I expect some tears and some pain, maybe some nights on the sofa however, ALL relationships have that over time. No relationship is truly and utterly perfect. I'm not worried though, we made it through literal hell and came out just as strong as ever.

So, here we stand. Over a year together, in the best and worst of times, through highs and lows, ups and downs, twists and turns... Still standing strong, still trucking on. We laugh in the faces of those who thought we wouldn't last, those who thought this was nothing but a fling. People who thought lowly of us, people who said and did some disgusting things towards us. We laugh at all of them. Why? They were wrong. Dead, dead, dead wrong.

Here's to us. One year down and many, many more to go. I love you baby. I love you with all my heart, body and soul, No one can stand between us, and I mean NO ONE. You're mine just like I am yours, through and through. I know you got my back, that you always give me a shoulder to cry on and the support I so terribly need at times. You put up with everything about me, the good and the bad. You accept and love me for everything. All my faults, all my quirks, you love them. I couldn't have asked for anyone better than you to spend my life with. You're my best friend as well as my partner, my lover. I never have to worry if these feelings are mutual or if something will happen. The look in your eyes says everything. You're here to stay. I've never felt so secure in a relationship than I am now. I'm not worried about pathetic little fools crawling back to you. Groveling at your feet and asking for another chance. Why? Because I know you love me and only me. I have no doubt on that.

As anyone reading this journal has noticed, I tend to ramble on and on and on when it comes to talking about my beloved and my feelings towards him. I will stop yaking your ears off now.

tl;dr; I've been with  fritter for over a year now and I love him just as much as I did when this relationship first started, if not more.