Well. I got a real job. For the first time since 09. Now, before any of you assume I have done nothing between then, know that I was employed as a temporary worker.

This Job is interesting to say the least. Yesterday was insane. First day on the job, they put me on the register while the girl disappears in the back for hours on end (Possibly texting or some crap). Leaving me alone, confused and people getting upset. Though that was a fault on other employees just flaking out.

As for other things. I am trying to endure this job so I can get out of here and go...somewhere. Anywhere away form my family. As usual, this time of year, I get completely neglected by my family, never one word of anything. But I guess I am just another one of many who have family issues or gets ignored, etc.

I just seek to be happy. To live somewhere without any catches. To help, pay rent. and live stress free. I want to be with a friend. Or maybe somebody closer than a friend someday. I just want to escape from the maddening misery that rips me apart day by day.

I wish I could be back in elementary school. (then again, no, I think I wouldn't. It was horrible for me) But. if I did. I could have a reason to be happy on my birthdays. Because back then, my family actually cared. Or perhaps they just felt sorry for me because I was always depressed due to school. But at least I was happy from the results. Now I am an adult. They expect me to be forgotten, just because that's what the rest of the family did to them. They don't want me to feel such childish feelings such as wanting a reason to celebrate a birthday. Or to want presents. I may not be extremely selfish, but I deserve something...sometimes.

I just hope it gets better. So for what it's worth, happy birthday, I guess.

Sorry to make you read drama. I just needed some way out.