for the past couple of weeks i've been struggling with my feelings and today i decided to let them out..well it didnt work out and i was a bit upset but i'm not going to stay mad it's there happiness and i'm glad. what really set me of was i wanted to let some of my stress out at the gym today and saw one of my friends..

jerk: so how it go with the whole "expressing: your feeling?
me: well i got turned down but it'm ok
Jerk :HAHA see it's what you get for looking the way you are and i dont blame him for turning you down.
me:....your a really ass you know
jerk: i may be an ass but your a waste of space and i'm soo glad that now you can be yourself

i'm sorry but i think i have made friends in the wrong places...AGAIN. the guy just basically showed me his true colors and does this to me..i'm holding my tears and tell my sister that i'm a walk home and the how way,i just cant help but this anger.he stepped all over my fragile heart just to shatter the rest of my feelings.i guess there are just people out there that want me alone and miserable again to build the cold steel heart i had ,but what good will that do..

i'm done with making friends if i run into having people like this around..



p.s you know who you are and i'm glad that your with some one. this is not to make you feel bad.it is not my intention to do so. so please forgive me..thank you