Isolation is a place you don't alway ways realize when you are there or that you sometimes have put yourself there. Saddly as for myself i put myself there by building walls to keep the world out figuretively speeking. yes i do let people glimpse the inside of those walls on very rare occasions, and there have been one or two that have broken through over the years, but the walls go back up and the door shuts again if slowl. why i put these walls up, well in truth im affraid, im affriad of getting close to people and for emotional bonds, im afraid that if i let some in im just going to get hurt, as has happened in the past. Oline i hid behind my character in the mmo's i play, or am a silent watcher who rarely comments on the art sights and other online commities i have been appart of, out in the real world i hide behind my sense of humor using it both as sword and shield to protect me. but this is no way to live... The wall has to come done the sword and shield put down, other wise the coldness of loniness will take over. i know the fears will always be there but they are something that has to be conquered not something to be conquered by.

Earlier this year i had a conversation with a artist via shouts on our user pages, i was among some of the earlist people to fav som of his work. When i admited to him i was most a silent lurking faving here and there when i found something liked, his reply seem crest fallen. for the life of me i wish i could remember who he was of find a way to pull up old shouts to find out who he was. I really want to thank him, that conversation was the hammer blow the put the first real cracks in the walls i had built around that i could find some excuse to repair, and put me on the path to bringing down the walls to really let people in and be more than a silent watcher/fav. I do admit its slow going path and i've got a long way to go but the first step have been taken and im not turning around. and to that person who wield that hammer and shattered my shell, thank you.

Stormtiger