It's sad. For months I've felt so amazing, counting how many friends I have and what not and feeling so loved. And now that I need someone, I come to realize while I may have many friends, I don't really trust very many. I've already in my short time around had people talk about me behind my back and then try to pretend they don't know what I'm talking about. Don't get me wrong, I do have a few great friends that I know I can always talk to, but they can't always be there for me. They have lives and boyfriends and other friends of their own.

Still, I wish I could trust people again...